Happy Birthday Babycakes
Years ago, when I was young, silly, and very much in love with the idea of being in love, I was really cheesy. I gushed and swooned about everything and nothing when I could jolly well state things more matter-of-factly. Time has passed, years have fluttered by, and I'd like to think that I've grown up rather significantly to become what I'm now. I don't wear my heart on my sleeve that much anymore and I'm not filled with that much big fluffy ideas. These days, I'd rather say things in a straightforward manner, laced with (hopefully) witty remarks. Too much of a smart mouth sometimes, not a lot of tact all the time either, but hey, it gets the message across.
I was just telling Wy the other day that I'm 'more open, but more closed' these days. I've mellowed a hell lot now as compared to the past, but when I do speak up, it's with a lot more honesty. I used to shoot my mouth off as and when I like without much of a care and... Ay, I'd liken it this change to basically having evolved from a big soft cookie from Subway to a smaller bite-sized hard cookie from Famous Amos, y'know what I mean ? Like a small glass of Marigold's fresh orange juice as compared to a big dispenser of pre-mixed orange-water syrup ?
I don't express myself that much anymore and when I do, my emotions are pretty limited. I used to be REALLY emotional, my friends can vouch for that. Now, I just prefer to be stoic. I'd like to think that people prefer me that way because they don't have to deal with my emotions going on overdrive but maybe not. Then again, I can't please everyone. I've kinda settled into this more mellow mood which doesn't take much effort and I'm good for now. Until someone shakes me out of this, I'd be this for a while, I supposed.
But the point of my entry is, I haven't been very romantic a girlfriend but I feel like it today. Now.
You, Happy Birthday. You are an awesome person and you make me undoubtedly happy. Why ? Because ...
1. You're so reliable, you're like my super duper tampon. I can count on you for almost anything that doesn't involve emotions on a large scale. Other than the fact that your emotive level is the depth of a petri dish and it can really piss the shit outta me (it's okay, I'm getting there anyway), you protect me with your all and take very good care of me. I don't know how you tolerate me but you're damn good at it. I can be fussy, fickle, shallow, or just plain horribly malicious, so much so that sometimes, I feel like I'm made of just bitch and rot despite trying to come across as being erudite. I'm not sorry about it because I pretty much like myself this way. And you, you take all of that without as much of a bat of an eyelid. Well, you did swallow hard and frown in the past but I bet you've adjusted well.
2. You sulk cute. My insides turn into fuzzy cotton candy mixed with squashy goo and pretty iridescent soap bubbles pop around my head whenever you frown and pout. Because you NEVER do look like you're capable of doing so, every time you do it, I just.. y'know.. Fall in love with you all over again. Bleargh.
3. You patronize me. Nine years older with a Degree with honors to boot, but if I were to insist that I'm a bunny, you'd agree. Of course you're way smarter and more streetwise, but you give in to me anyway. It might be because of how argumentative I can be (if I insist that the clouds are red, they.are.red and I'll make sure that white becomes red, period) or how cantankerous I get if I don't get my way, either way you seldom allow me to get there. If I should say something stupid, you will widen your eyes slightly at my ignorance before correcting me. But if I were to frown and pout, you will take your correction back and allow me that little victory. I find that uber sweet and funny at the same time and every time you do that, I smirk and do a little dance inside my head. I appreciate that - how you lower your pride a little just for my sake.
Celebrate, for you're Amazing, Bold, Collected, Dashing, Ecstasy, Funny, Gutsy, Honey, Intriguing, Jackpot, Knowledgeable, Love, Matchless, Natty, Orgasmic, Perplexing, Quirky, Real, Superlative, Tenderhearted, Unconventional, Vain, Witty, Xanax, Yummy, and Zany.
I hope I make you smile like the sun, fall out of bed, sing like bird, dizzy in your head, spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night, dance like a fool, forget how to breathe, shine like gold and buzz like a bee, always. I ♡ you.
I was just telling Wy the other day that I'm 'more open, but more closed' these days. I've mellowed a hell lot now as compared to the past, but when I do speak up, it's with a lot more honesty. I used to shoot my mouth off as and when I like without much of a care and... Ay, I'd liken it this change to basically having evolved from a big soft cookie from Subway to a smaller bite-sized hard cookie from Famous Amos, y'know what I mean ? Like a small glass of Marigold's fresh orange juice as compared to a big dispenser of pre-mixed orange-water syrup ?
I don't express myself that much anymore and when I do, my emotions are pretty limited. I used to be REALLY emotional, my friends can vouch for that. Now, I just prefer to be stoic. I'd like to think that people prefer me that way because they don't have to deal with my emotions going on overdrive but maybe not. Then again, I can't please everyone. I've kinda settled into this more mellow mood which doesn't take much effort and I'm good for now. Until someone shakes me out of this, I'd be this for a while, I supposed.
But the point of my entry is, I haven't been very romantic a girlfriend but I feel like it today. Now.
You, Happy Birthday. You are an awesome person and you make me undoubtedly happy. Why ? Because ...
1. You're so reliable, you're like my super duper tampon. I can count on you for almost anything that doesn't involve emotions on a large scale. Other than the fact that your emotive level is the depth of a petri dish and it can really piss the shit outta me (it's okay, I'm getting there anyway), you protect me with your all and take very good care of me. I don't know how you tolerate me but you're damn good at it. I can be fussy, fickle, shallow, or just plain horribly malicious, so much so that sometimes, I feel like I'm made of just bitch and rot despite trying to come across as being erudite. I'm not sorry about it because I pretty much like myself this way. And you, you take all of that without as much of a bat of an eyelid. Well, you did swallow hard and frown in the past but I bet you've adjusted well.
2. You sulk cute. My insides turn into fuzzy cotton candy mixed with squashy goo and pretty iridescent soap bubbles pop around my head whenever you frown and pout. Because you NEVER do look like you're capable of doing so, every time you do it, I just.. y'know.. Fall in love with you all over again. Bleargh.
3. You patronize me. Nine years older with a Degree with honors to boot, but if I were to insist that I'm a bunny, you'd agree. Of course you're way smarter and more streetwise, but you give in to me anyway. It might be because of how argumentative I can be (if I insist that the clouds are red, they.are.red and I'll make sure that white becomes red, period) or how cantankerous I get if I don't get my way, either way you seldom allow me to get there. If I should say something stupid, you will widen your eyes slightly at my ignorance before correcting me. But if I were to frown and pout, you will take your correction back and allow me that little victory. I find that uber sweet and funny at the same time and every time you do that, I smirk and do a little dance inside my head. I appreciate that - how you lower your pride a little just for my sake.
Celebrate, for you're Amazing, Bold, Collected, Dashing, Ecstasy, Funny, Gutsy, Honey, Intriguing, Jackpot, Knowledgeable, Love, Matchless, Natty, Orgasmic, Perplexing, Quirky, Real, Superlative, Tenderhearted, Unconventional, Vain, Witty, Xanax, Yummy, and Zany.
I hope I make you smile like the sun, fall out of bed, sing like bird, dizzy in your head, spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night, dance like a fool, forget how to breathe, shine like gold and buzz like a bee, always. I ♡ you.