Nov 18, 2010 14:45
Bwuh. So I had the oppurtunity to get paid acting work for 6 months. And I turned it down. And am trying to convince myself that I am not stupid.
Am I just too afraid of being poor to rough this out? That might be part of it.
Mostly I need reassurance. I shouldn't take a job just because it's paying. It's a kids theatre company. They tour around schools in Toronto and other places. But it would be $500 a week max (before taxes are deducted) and the time commitment wouldn't allow for a second job. That was the clincher I think. Even other acting jobs would either allow for another job, OR the time commitment would be something like 6-8 weeks, not 4-6 months, OR it would be something I was passionate about where I would just try to make it work.
Plus I have other projects I would like to work on.
Mostly, I want to stop feeling like a disappointment. My guilt complex knows no bounds.