another day another dime
Life man, fucking life. We are about to hit 8 months out here in Iraq, and I really just feel like life sucks. I've heard rumors on extensions and what not and while the money is good, I swear I will raise all kinds of hell if I miss another of my son's birthdays. Bad enough I missed number 1 because I was in training, then number 2 because of deploying out here. I will not, I repeat will not miss number 3 for this shit. Now that I got that out of the way. Christmas is on its way. 3 ID is on its way, hooray. Now on to the confusing things. So I have a girl friend of like almost 9 months, but it definately seems like things are kinda drifting and I don't know why. What makes matters worse though is that my son's mother seems to be getting a wee bit more friendly with me in *THAT* kinda way. I get confused with thinking on these things. I mean do I get back with her and leave my current girl friend or not. The biggest thing that worries me is what kind of impact it could have on my son. If I don't get back together with her, will she have rekindled hatred for me and push it onto my son? If I do get back with her and it doesn't work like it hasn't the last three times, what kind of emotional damage would my son go through because he feels like it's his fault. Decisions, decisions. Lucky for me I guess that I got time to sit back and thing about this for at least another 4 months. Well I spoke my mind so there.