Confessions from a Birthday Girl (D6)
It's either you celebrate your birthday with a big bang or you don't celebrate it at all. Really.
This year, I had a lot of ideas but the situation is that I can't have everyone together anymore. We're not in school so our schedules are too different and THIS SUCKS. So I decided to split it up. Make a get together on the Tuesday night and an official party on Saturday. Mistake number one. Not knowing what we were doing exactly, I opted to tell everyone not to give me presents. Mistake number two. I updated via emails and I believe I acted happy but very considerate of others' schedule. Mistake number three.
Now on Tuesday seeing almost everyone was fun, especially considering one person couldn't come on Saturday. The day went well and I was very pleased with it all. Someone paid for my miniputting and someone else bought me ice cream. On Saturday I was a bit let down. I was excited to see someone I hadn't seen in a while and someone else managed to come over for a bit when they previously couldn't. Those parts were good. In fact when we played a few games and watched a movie it was fun. But, it lacked a sort of excitement. I had decorations and a cake with candles, but just something as minor as people showing up late was a serious cut down on fun time. Oh your car might not be working? Well I can give you a ride so write like it's possible to make it...
It's just the little things. They add up. Sigh. I was sad at one point because I didn't feel all that important and maybe it's just that we're growing up but who the hell cares? I'm getting old each year and you think I should just chill on the day that I look back on? Birthdays aren't really fun unless you make them fun. No one wants to be reminded that they're getting older. No one wants to have to look back and compare this year to those before and see inadequacies we humans tend to dwell on (with friends you look back on the good times). No one wants to be bored on their birthday. We make it such a big thing that if it doesn't get to be big it seems unimportant which gives the message that you aren't worth the celebration. To each their own desires. It could be a quiet dinner or a getaway on a cruise... either way your birthday should be worth the one day for people to celebrate the way you are meant to be celebrated.
Next year I'll make an official big party and we'll go camping or something; this year, splitting it up gave up some of the excitement and necessary presence. Next year I'll ask for presents; I'm not greedy, but having people think about what you want and what you'll enjoy, and then receiving gifts that people thought about and cared enough to give you is pretty awesome (isn't that why Christmas is so popular?). And next year, I won't take no for an answer; there are things that can't be helped but consider that it's one day out of 365... I'm sure you can spare one for your friend and act excited just as I'll do for you.
EXP: Originally I was at a lost of what I wanted to write, but considering this is still a journal in all I supposed writing about my day was good enough. In hindsight, I think I would've preferred to write a piece of fiction. Oh well :p
Words: 561/500
This year, I had a lot of ideas but the situation is that I can't have everyone together anymore. We're not in school so our schedules are too different and THIS SUCKS. So I decided to split it up. Make a get together on the Tuesday night and an official party on Saturday. Mistake number one. Not knowing what we were doing exactly, I opted to tell everyone not to give me presents. Mistake number two. I updated via emails and I believe I acted happy but very considerate of others' schedule. Mistake number three.
Now on Tuesday seeing almost everyone was fun, especially considering one person couldn't come on Saturday. The day went well and I was very pleased with it all. Someone paid for my miniputting and someone else bought me ice cream. On Saturday I was a bit let down. I was excited to see someone I hadn't seen in a while and someone else managed to come over for a bit when they previously couldn't. Those parts were good. In fact when we played a few games and watched a movie it was fun. But, it lacked a sort of excitement. I had decorations and a cake with candles, but just something as minor as people showing up late was a serious cut down on fun time. Oh your car might not be working? Well I can give you a ride so write like it's possible to make it...
It's just the little things. They add up. Sigh. I was sad at one point because I didn't feel all that important and maybe it's just that we're growing up but who the hell cares? I'm getting old each year and you think I should just chill on the day that I look back on? Birthdays aren't really fun unless you make them fun. No one wants to be reminded that they're getting older. No one wants to have to look back and compare this year to those before and see inadequacies we humans tend to dwell on (with friends you look back on the good times). No one wants to be bored on their birthday. We make it such a big thing that if it doesn't get to be big it seems unimportant which gives the message that you aren't worth the celebration. To each their own desires. It could be a quiet dinner or a getaway on a cruise... either way your birthday should be worth the one day for people to celebrate the way you are meant to be celebrated.
Next year I'll make an official big party and we'll go camping or something; this year, splitting it up gave up some of the excitement and necessary presence. Next year I'll ask for presents; I'm not greedy, but having people think about what you want and what you'll enjoy, and then receiving gifts that people thought about and cared enough to give you is pretty awesome (isn't that why Christmas is so popular?). And next year, I won't take no for an answer; there are things that can't be helped but consider that it's one day out of 365... I'm sure you can spare one for your friend and act excited just as I'll do for you.
EXP: Originally I was at a lost of what I wanted to write, but considering this is still a journal in all I supposed writing about my day was good enough. In hindsight, I think I would've preferred to write a piece of fiction. Oh well :p
Words: 561/500