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Whoa-ho... Who likes pink in thier pee???!!!!! I DO I DO... apparently...
I'm freezing. My innards kinda hurt uhhuh.
I can't even eat, cept a small small snack every three days about. Today was the most i ate. 4 bites of mac and cheese... now i'm sooo soo full. i'm tired constantly. mommy was mad at me cuz i drank a glass of Pepsi. I tried to sneak it, but she came in the kicthen and i didn't have time to hide it very well. hahaha... she was a bunch of like "Hey what are you doing?" I was like "Uhhhhhhhh uhhhh... i just wanted a little just this one glass.... i swear i wont drink anymore for the next two days." then she was like "You even get yourself to believe your own lie... are you kidding me?? You're working all day tomorrow... what else are you going to drink there?" haha fucken Mountain Dewww? " No , NO, i'm not lying... i'll drink the bottled water :( " " she says " Well i just told u what you're supposed to do earlier.... either way you're only going to get worse as it is... and you are only going to make it even worse with that caffine and stuff... you arent supposed to have caffine or sugar, or anything. they want u to drink tons of water... you're going to start getting fevers, possibly nausea/vomitting, too soon, and you are only going to make it worse." i'm a bunch a like " i know i know...just a little right now, and i'll start with the water tomorrow... after this glass of pepsi i'll drink a glass of water" haha yeah that was like 2 hours ago... i just cant make myself drink as much as shit says i should drink.... i already feel like i have to pee enough....i just don't get that thirsty... oh well ... i'll try. starting tomorrow i guess. this is just going to get mroe unpleasant each day, i might as well not add to it.
but dayam... this stomach shrinking to the size of a pea shit can't be too bad. i'd eat if i were hungry, but i cant be starving, if i don't feel hungry, right? go me 103lbs.... and i don't even have to do that shit on purpose...nice. it makes my boobs look bigger like whoaaaaaaaaaaa :O
yeah that's me just as unintresting as ever. I could say more, but of course it's all top secret for now, atleast.
"Don't get it twisted... This is not my real life... this is not how my real life is supposed to be."
I guess somewhere inside my childhood is where my heart died.