updated....
so another red letter day of course... i love it when i come in all concerned for my mother, wanting to make sure she is ok, then she turns around and tells me that a failure i am, how ill never do anything until i take responsibility for my actions, how shes my worst enemy because she knows that my father is a dick so she has been trying to make everything better for me by giving me money and by trying to make me comfortable when i come home... so shes refusing to help me anymore, shes telling me that i am not going on vacation, which I PAY FOR, that i cant have the basement when we move, the one thing that i have been looking forward to since i found out we are moving. According to her she doesnt want to give me a basement appt because i havent earned it and she is afraid that when college ends, because NO Grad school is going to accept me cause im a horrible failure, that i am going to move into the basement and stay there, becoming one of those horrible middle age people who are unhappy with their lives because they never amounted to anything and work at a job that they hate... so i left... i walked out and left... im just so tired of her and everything.... then, to top off a wonderful day, i got a migraine, and had to come back home so i could give myself an Imitrex injection so my head wouldnt explode... great... i love it when my mother tells me what a failure i am, it makes me feel all tingly inside, like im going to through up, preferably on her... its like, ok, i get it, i suck, but im not going to wind up living at home for the rest of my life. i was more damnit!!! so i thought about it, ok, so i dont go on vacation, sucks yea, but i get the house to myself for an entire week, woot, and i dont loose money by taking a week off... so im thinking, ill hang out with friends, go see movies, dinner, etc etc... so, in the end, the world is looking up... but i may still have to take out my mother...