I'll Be Damned
I am so completely overwhelmed right now. I have switched my days off at work so I could be able to go back to school, but financial obligations have hindered me from doing so at this moment, but I am hoping to get started either with Short-term classes, or just wait another semester. I've waited this long, right? But now that I have two days off during the week, I feel as though I am never at work. It doesnt help that I am down an assistant. Geez, it seems like I am always picking up the slack because of everyone's inability to work. So during the last month or so I have been placing more and more responsibility on my team and they don't know how to respond. I have come to the realization that the only thing holding me back from getting to the next level or getting a promotion has to do with my intensity. I know my job, I know how to do it and I think I do an okay job, but okay just doesnt seem to be good enough anymore. In order to remedy the situation I have been steadily increasing the bitch-factor when I work. I seriously feel like I have 10 children and its a stressful feeling. Its hard to balance a relationship that is friendly yet they need to respect me and my decisions as far as my department goes. That would be hard even with 1 person, but if you multiply that by 10...you can see where I am going with this.
I have been trying my hardest to show to my superiors that I do love what I do and that I have a passion for the business, but its been so hard when business has been particularly tough the last 3 months and I have a crew that act likes they are too busy to come to work. So in order to show my manager that I am not going away anytime soon I have been working LONG days at work. I'm talkin during Holiday season it would be 13-14 hour days. Now, its more like 8-10 hour days...but I have also been more vocal instead of just letting things pass me by. I think it may be about to payoff for me. I dont want to get my hopes up, but the manager of Women's Shoes got removed from her position the other day and I think I have a good chance of getting that department. We all knew that she was not a good manager, but she has only missed 1 month since she's been in her role...compared to me only making 4 months since I have been in mine, which has been over a year. So, I left my Manager a voicemail and let her know that I am VERY interested in the position and didnt want her to forget about me during her decision making process. Wish me luck.
Skyeler's Mom is supposed to be coming over here tonight. At first, I was like whatever...he's gonna have a helluva time trying to explain there only being 2 rooms in here, but I wasn't 'worried'. Then all of a sudden I realized just how much of a mess our place is, so I got up and started cleaning. Just because her son lives like a wild beast that aint got no home trainin, doesn't mean that she has to think that of me. So I cleaned the room and the bathroom and the hallway along with the kitchen. Its not spic and span, but its a hell of a lot better than it was before.
While I was cleaning I came across the mountain of bills that have been accumulating around here. WHY DONT THEY GO AWAY!!! I have seriously paid off every personal bill I had last year, but they just keep on comin. I can't wait for us to finally be done with 8331 so I can finally save some effin money.
I have been trying my hardest to show to my superiors that I do love what I do and that I have a passion for the business, but its been so hard when business has been particularly tough the last 3 months and I have a crew that act likes they are too busy to come to work. So in order to show my manager that I am not going away anytime soon I have been working LONG days at work. I'm talkin during Holiday season it would be 13-14 hour days. Now, its more like 8-10 hour days...but I have also been more vocal instead of just letting things pass me by. I think it may be about to payoff for me. I dont want to get my hopes up, but the manager of Women's Shoes got removed from her position the other day and I think I have a good chance of getting that department. We all knew that she was not a good manager, but she has only missed 1 month since she's been in her role...compared to me only making 4 months since I have been in mine, which has been over a year. So, I left my Manager a voicemail and let her know that I am VERY interested in the position and didnt want her to forget about me during her decision making process. Wish me luck.
Skyeler's Mom is supposed to be coming over here tonight. At first, I was like whatever...he's gonna have a helluva time trying to explain there only being 2 rooms in here, but I wasn't 'worried'. Then all of a sudden I realized just how much of a mess our place is, so I got up and started cleaning. Just because her son lives like a wild beast that aint got no home trainin, doesn't mean that she has to think that of me. So I cleaned the room and the bathroom and the hallway along with the kitchen. Its not spic and span, but its a hell of a lot better than it was before.
While I was cleaning I came across the mountain of bills that have been accumulating around here. WHY DONT THEY GO AWAY!!! I have seriously paid off every personal bill I had last year, but they just keep on comin. I can't wait for us to finally be done with 8331 so I can finally save some effin money.