I CAN NOT LIE TO MYSELF ANYMORE.
I'm not okay with this. Who I am hates this. I am selfish for you. I love you. I really hope that a softer world post you put up a few days ago was not directed at me. That fortune cookie was wrong, at least so far. That's what I get for trusting my fate to a fortune cookie. I should have just globbled the whole thing, paper and all.