Songs of recovery
"I will watch you,
In thy darkness,
Show you love will see you through.
And thy bad dreams,
wake you crying.
I'll show you what love can do.
For love can do.
I will watch, through the night,
hold you in my arms.
Give you dreams when you're weepy.
I will watch through the dark till the morning comes.
For thy light, I'll take you from the night to see.
Our light, showing us how love can be.
I will guide you,
with my bright wings.
stay till your heart,
learns to sing.
How love can,
be."
Haha, I probably screwed up the lyrics. Her voice is beautiful yet hard to comprehend at the same time.
This song has gotten me through the loneliest times in my life. It still works!
Every morning I wake up and check facebook, specifically for her status. It's not a good idea, but I can't help myself. Recently they have all been making me sad, upset, and restless. But each day of pain has become shorter and shorter, as I learn to accept it. Love is about acceptance anyways, right?
I can't get my heater to turn on. Apparently my pilot light has yet to be lit. Even if it does get lit, I still do not know how to turn on my heater. I was freezing all of last night. I wore many layers of clothes but it didn't help much. Last night I fell asleep with a temperature of 99.5. Today I woke up with a temperature of 99.9. Wrong way! Both temperatures are great radio stations though, at least in Colorado. :)
I really fail at choosing a halloween costume. Granted, this disease has made it hard for me to go anywhere. If I can't even type correctly, there's no way I'm going to try and drive to an unknown place. My confusion symptoms plus my medication tells me to leave my car alone. I'm doing better today though, and hopefully I can whip up some bad ass Fresh prince stuff. I was thinking yesterday and finally came up with an idea of my own for a costume. It would be awesome if I went as a Dementor from Harry Potter! Rawr, I'ma kiss your soul away! haha.
This has been the busiest semester I've ever had to deal with. I have to write papers every day, but that's what I get for taking two english classes at once.
I was looking at my wardrobe, and I realized that a lot of my clothes were my fathers. All of my hoodies, the gloves. Even the full leather jacket (which I wore yesterday. That thing is really comfortable, but it's a little squeaky!) It made me want my blue hoodie back really bad. I still don't know how that rip got in on the hood. I also miss listening to my iPod in the car. The Bose sound system in there is such a boss. You can't tell through the radio, but toss in a CD and crank it up. Beautiful. I want to get an ipod thing that hooks straight up to the sound system instead of through the radio, so no quality is lost. That's just me being picky though.
Sometimes I still regret getting the car. I've never spent so much money in my life. The plan was to get a job with help from the car, but as usual, I failed. No one is hiring, unless I apply at Sitel. How weird that would be for Jamie. I doubt she would like it. I'm so busy writing my papers to do much though. The only time I get to spend not doing homework is when I procrastinate. No bueno!
Yet things would be so different. Jamie and I probably would be farther a part than we are now, because I wouldn't be able to visit as often, or go to lunch with her on her break. I mean come on, we practically fell apart after she moved out of Garcia. Man, those were the days. I look at old pictures and smile at how much fun we had. Good memories. Great memories. Memories that I plan to never forget. Thanks for originating the GLG, It definitely was the place to be. I miss all the games of truth or dare we played. lol at Pie, lol at me and my record for simulation, lol at Mat acting like a crack addict, or Patrick picking up a plant, sitting outside and singing you are my sunshine to it. lol at me commiting my first act of public nudity, yet I doubt anyone looked. And lol at all the loving those windows got.
I'm almost done with this midterm paper. Once I finish this, I have to start on the final. I plan on finishing it early though. I need to get it out of the way, as well as the Med. anthropology class presentation. With those out of the way, I'll only have a five page theory paper....and one hell of an animation to finish. This is 2D animation, a blessing and a curse. It's a blessing because render times go from days to hours. Curse because I have to draw every frame, instead of doing what is called Tweening between poses. I'll explain tweening if anyone asks, otherwise just take it as animator jibberish.
Maybe my fortune cookie was right. I shouldn't be sick by November. Hopefully I'll be able to accept her choice. I shouldn't be sad that she's happy. That's just plain selfish, and I pride my self on being rather selfless. Oh and if you read this today, I still got 145 on it if you need it. :)
Thomas Pendergrass
In thy darkness,
Show you love will see you through.
And thy bad dreams,
wake you crying.
I'll show you what love can do.
For love can do.
I will watch, through the night,
hold you in my arms.
Give you dreams when you're weepy.
I will watch through the dark till the morning comes.
For thy light, I'll take you from the night to see.
Our light, showing us how love can be.
I will guide you,
with my bright wings.
stay till your heart,
learns to sing.
How love can,
be."
Haha, I probably screwed up the lyrics. Her voice is beautiful yet hard to comprehend at the same time.
This song has gotten me through the loneliest times in my life. It still works!
Every morning I wake up and check facebook, specifically for her status. It's not a good idea, but I can't help myself. Recently they have all been making me sad, upset, and restless. But each day of pain has become shorter and shorter, as I learn to accept it. Love is about acceptance anyways, right?
I can't get my heater to turn on. Apparently my pilot light has yet to be lit. Even if it does get lit, I still do not know how to turn on my heater. I was freezing all of last night. I wore many layers of clothes but it didn't help much. Last night I fell asleep with a temperature of 99.5. Today I woke up with a temperature of 99.9. Wrong way! Both temperatures are great radio stations though, at least in Colorado. :)
I really fail at choosing a halloween costume. Granted, this disease has made it hard for me to go anywhere. If I can't even type correctly, there's no way I'm going to try and drive to an unknown place. My confusion symptoms plus my medication tells me to leave my car alone. I'm doing better today though, and hopefully I can whip up some bad ass Fresh prince stuff. I was thinking yesterday and finally came up with an idea of my own for a costume. It would be awesome if I went as a Dementor from Harry Potter! Rawr, I'ma kiss your soul away! haha.
This has been the busiest semester I've ever had to deal with. I have to write papers every day, but that's what I get for taking two english classes at once.
I was looking at my wardrobe, and I realized that a lot of my clothes were my fathers. All of my hoodies, the gloves. Even the full leather jacket (which I wore yesterday. That thing is really comfortable, but it's a little squeaky!) It made me want my blue hoodie back really bad. I still don't know how that rip got in on the hood. I also miss listening to my iPod in the car. The Bose sound system in there is such a boss. You can't tell through the radio, but toss in a CD and crank it up. Beautiful. I want to get an ipod thing that hooks straight up to the sound system instead of through the radio, so no quality is lost. That's just me being picky though.
Sometimes I still regret getting the car. I've never spent so much money in my life. The plan was to get a job with help from the car, but as usual, I failed. No one is hiring, unless I apply at Sitel. How weird that would be for Jamie. I doubt she would like it. I'm so busy writing my papers to do much though. The only time I get to spend not doing homework is when I procrastinate. No bueno!
Yet things would be so different. Jamie and I probably would be farther a part than we are now, because I wouldn't be able to visit as often, or go to lunch with her on her break. I mean come on, we practically fell apart after she moved out of Garcia. Man, those were the days. I look at old pictures and smile at how much fun we had. Good memories. Great memories. Memories that I plan to never forget. Thanks for originating the GLG, It definitely was the place to be. I miss all the games of truth or dare we played. lol at Pie, lol at me and my record for simulation, lol at Mat acting like a crack addict, or Patrick picking up a plant, sitting outside and singing you are my sunshine to it. lol at me commiting my first act of public nudity, yet I doubt anyone looked. And lol at all the loving those windows got.
I'm almost done with this midterm paper. Once I finish this, I have to start on the final. I plan on finishing it early though. I need to get it out of the way, as well as the Med. anthropology class presentation. With those out of the way, I'll only have a five page theory paper....and one hell of an animation to finish. This is 2D animation, a blessing and a curse. It's a blessing because render times go from days to hours. Curse because I have to draw every frame, instead of doing what is called Tweening between poses. I'll explain tweening if anyone asks, otherwise just take it as animator jibberish.
Maybe my fortune cookie was right. I shouldn't be sick by November. Hopefully I'll be able to accept her choice. I shouldn't be sad that she's happy. That's just plain selfish, and I pride my self on being rather selfless. Oh and if you read this today, I still got 145 on it if you need it. :)
Thomas Pendergrass