Current horrors
How can someone decide to stay with someone when their mind tells them to run, how can one person be such a terrible person to another & not realize it until it's to late.
I'm a terrible person, it's true, I seem to have driven one person away only to have the next one in my life be so generous & kind, so much brighter of a light in my life on to be blind to it, to drive it away.
My mind is lost to the things that are good that are standing right in front of me, a despot, fool, idiot, shill, fearful subconsciously of being happy. I can't let myself see a light that is fading away from me.
I want to be happy, I want to seeing the kindness and good that is laid out before me, but I can't for some reason, I can feel the warmth but it's fading away, I'm growing cold again, my heart is dying & it hurts to see myself dragging down someone with me.
I'm a terrible person, it's true, I seem to have driven one person away only to have the next one in my life be so generous & kind, so much brighter of a light in my life on to be blind to it, to drive it away.
My mind is lost to the things that are good that are standing right in front of me, a despot, fool, idiot, shill, fearful subconsciously of being happy. I can't let myself see a light that is fading away from me.
I want to be happy, I want to seeing the kindness and good that is laid out before me, but I can't for some reason, I can feel the warmth but it's fading away, I'm growing cold again, my heart is dying & it hurts to see myself dragging down someone with me.