Life in general
WHY, Why is it everytime I find myself on this od service that I'm poosting shit about abject misery, why do Ifind myself in such a self destructive mind set do I feel the need to take myself back to the a time when I used this more often than not.
I again find myself wanting to end myself, hating who I am and wanting nothing more than to get away from life, I'm not in away shape or form able to do this on my own and yet I feel like I'm being abondoned by everyone.
I have no emotional support system to keep me sane, I'm functioning just well enough to work and pay the bills that I pay, I have no drive to go out and be socail and even if I did no one calls on me t come out and be socail, it's like eveyone fogets I even exist.
Do I ack it in and leave eveything I thought I knew and start over else where or do I stick it out and hope someone remembers that I exist. I live alone with my cat and some would think that's enough, I need human interaction on occasion, more often now than ever it seems.
I again find myself wanting to end myself, hating who I am and wanting nothing more than to get away from life, I'm not in away shape or form able to do this on my own and yet I feel like I'm being abondoned by everyone.
I have no emotional support system to keep me sane, I'm functioning just well enough to work and pay the bills that I pay, I have no drive to go out and be socail and even if I did no one calls on me t come out and be socail, it's like eveyone fogets I even exist.
Do I ack it in and leave eveything I thought I knew and start over else where or do I stick it out and hope someone remembers that I exist. I live alone with my cat and some would think that's enough, I need human interaction on occasion, more often now than ever it seems.