I'm officially booking Dr's appts.

[dragonteeth]

I really need to find a psychiatrist in town. My sleep schedule is all fucked up. I was in SUCH a bad mood yesterday morning. I'm definitely depressed, overwhelmed, and frustrated. I think it has a lot to do with the holidays and years of moving. Everyone I work with is asking for time off so they can be with family or friends and I am working

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[blindness]

I almost choked on my coffee when I read this post. You and I are going through so much of the same stuff right now, Karen. I feel so much of what you wrote, like exactly. I think you are right in that you have been working so hard in school and now on your job that friendships and boyfriends have taken a back seat, even though you were building relationships and working on that, it still wasn't your priority (same as me). The pain of breakup is a lot to deal with, too, so you may not be quite into close relationships yet? Like, it may affect you without you realizing it, for example, you may not trust your instincts the same way and may be a bit less open to bonding. That's what I think is going on with me sometimes, and I think what you are doing right now is exactly the right thing. You are questioning your life, looking for answers, improving your health and body, looking toward your family and stable relationships. I know it sucks to work and be alone on the holidays but you do have people around you, they're just not as close as you like. Maybe it would make it easier to be alone by realizing that this is exactly how it's supposed to be right now, it won't be this way ever again, and you will meet people who are right for you in the coming year.

I hope you feel better. I am reading A LOT these days and that helps.

[dragonteeth]

((((HUGS))))!!!!!!!!

Longer reply later, but it's great to hear from you as usual. :) Feeling a bit better....