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Okay, I've finally gotten over my LJ drama. It's not really worth harboring negative feelings for someone I don't even know. Even though I want to scream in her face. What does that say about me? Seriously. It's so not logical that I let her get to me like that.
Moving on...I went up to Minneapolis/St Paul this weekend to visit my best friend and her family. I'm Aunt Karen up there so the love just keeps flowin'.
I just got my first Dr to agree to write me a recommendation for Residency. He's the guy I did cardiology with in November. That got me all excited about my future, and the fact that I'm going to get to do what I want in life, and how awsome it is and all that. I'm only 17 months away from being a full fledged doctor myself! Yay! I'm about 90% sure I want to do psychiatry. I KNOW I'd be good at that. I feel 100% confident that I would be good at it. Great maybe. I think I could be good enough at other things, but specialty medicine is def for me. And I don't want to be competent. I want to be confident that I am good at my job. I'd probably be anxious if I went into IM or Family Practice or something. I'd never be comfortable that I knew enough in Primary care.
Looking at residency programs was fun, but then I started to get anxious about not being good enough to get into the program(s) I want and having to settle for another 4 years or whatever. I'd like the place I do my residency to be in an area that I want to live in for the next decade or so. I'm tired of having to move around and put my life on hold. I'd like to get to it! But, I can't control any of these factors so I'll just trust that I'll go somewhere I like and will be good for me. Besides, I have way more pressing concerns right now like all the stuff I'm supposed to be learning about this week.
See, this is why I should go into psych. I'd love to be studying for psych right now, but I have to study something else instead and I think that sucks.
Moving on...I went up to Minneapolis/St Paul this weekend to visit my best friend and her family. I'm Aunt Karen up there so the love just keeps flowin'.
I just got my first Dr to agree to write me a recommendation for Residency. He's the guy I did cardiology with in November. That got me all excited about my future, and the fact that I'm going to get to do what I want in life, and how awsome it is and all that. I'm only 17 months away from being a full fledged doctor myself! Yay! I'm about 90% sure I want to do psychiatry. I KNOW I'd be good at that. I feel 100% confident that I would be good at it. Great maybe. I think I could be good enough at other things, but specialty medicine is def for me. And I don't want to be competent. I want to be confident that I am good at my job. I'd probably be anxious if I went into IM or Family Practice or something. I'd never be comfortable that I knew enough in Primary care.
Looking at residency programs was fun, but then I started to get anxious about not being good enough to get into the program(s) I want and having to settle for another 4 years or whatever. I'd like the place I do my residency to be in an area that I want to live in for the next decade or so. I'm tired of having to move around and put my life on hold. I'd like to get to it! But, I can't control any of these factors so I'll just trust that I'll go somewhere I like and will be good for me. Besides, I have way more pressing concerns right now like all the stuff I'm supposed to be learning about this week.
See, this is why I should go into psych. I'd love to be studying for psych right now, but I have to study something else instead and I think that sucks.