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My neck is tight. I feel like I'm wearing too-tight headphones. My shoulders make this crunching sound when I roll them.
In other news, I've lost 7 pounds (roughly). On purpose, that is. I'm eating healthier most of the time than I ever have.
I've kind of not paid attention to the amount I've historically relied on food as a source of comfort and as a pain-reliever. I feel sad? Grab a cookie. I feel anxious? Have a beer. I feel ugly or fat? Grab ANOTHER cookie, because THAT makes sense. Headache? Some cheese will help! Crappy day? A delicious sack of french fries will fix that right up.
Anyway, I think that's true about me. Kind of frightening, cause NOW what will I do when I feel sad??? Do I have to cry like a human being???
Normally when I feel this tense, I have wine, or some cookies, or a candy bar, or really whatever will send dopamine signals in my brains. Now all I got is veggie soup, which really isn't the same despite being pretty tasty, and some girlie movies. And some Skyrim. I guess it will have to do. I can't even go work out or have a bath because of the surgery two weeks ago. Two more weeks of doctor-prescribed sitting-on-my-ass. I want to use a fizzy cupcake :( (Note, you don't eat this kind.)
In other news, I've lost 7 pounds (roughly). On purpose, that is. I'm eating healthier most of the time than I ever have.
I've kind of not paid attention to the amount I've historically relied on food as a source of comfort and as a pain-reliever. I feel sad? Grab a cookie. I feel anxious? Have a beer. I feel ugly or fat? Grab ANOTHER cookie, because THAT makes sense. Headache? Some cheese will help! Crappy day? A delicious sack of french fries will fix that right up.
Anyway, I think that's true about me. Kind of frightening, cause NOW what will I do when I feel sad??? Do I have to cry like a human being???
Normally when I feel this tense, I have wine, or some cookies, or a candy bar, or really whatever will send dopamine signals in my brains. Now all I got is veggie soup, which really isn't the same despite being pretty tasty, and some girlie movies. And some Skyrim. I guess it will have to do. I can't even go work out or have a bath because of the surgery two weeks ago. Two more weeks of doctor-prescribed sitting-on-my-ass. I want to use a fizzy cupcake :( (Note, you don't eat this kind.)