Christmas Eve
As usual I find myself at my parents, the big bash a few hours off, and I find myself thinking of Lothlorien. The weekend of Raven and Val's Handfasting in particular (I was just listening to She Moves Through the Fair - sang by Raven's sister during the ceremony). That was such a beautiful and amazing weekend for more reasons than one. Things were so different then. I participated in a wonderful ritual that brought two people I love together. I danced, I sang, and for the first time I got to see the roaring fire at Thunder Shrine reflected in the eyes of a man I loved. Love still. Regardless, I think back on that weekend and wonder how he could doubt. I wish he could remember.
Aside from the nostalgia that keeps gripping me now and then I'm doing fine and glad to be home for a few days. I needed to get away and the good time we'll have tonight will no doubt do wonders for me. I miss my friends but I'm sure I'll see them after the holidays. I'll be staying at Raven and Val's for a couple of days while I get my vehicle looked at (gotta figure out exactly when so I can let them know). Maybe next week if I don't take New Year's Day off. I may as well work New Year's day as I have no plans to do anything this year. Silly me for thinking I'd never spend another New Year's alone again. It's self induced anyway as the one person I'd want to be with at midnight will probably be doing his own thing. No, I'm not trying to incite guilt, I just haven't reached the point where I can imagine being with anyone else so I'd rather be alone. My choice and I'll be just fine as I've spent a few New Years on my own and it was no big deal. So maybe I'll just work. We'll see.
That's it for now. I hope those who celebrate have a good holiday! Have fun and be merry!
Aside from the nostalgia that keeps gripping me now and then I'm doing fine and glad to be home for a few days. I needed to get away and the good time we'll have tonight will no doubt do wonders for me. I miss my friends but I'm sure I'll see them after the holidays. I'll be staying at Raven and Val's for a couple of days while I get my vehicle looked at (gotta figure out exactly when so I can let them know). Maybe next week if I don't take New Year's Day off. I may as well work New Year's day as I have no plans to do anything this year. Silly me for thinking I'd never spend another New Year's alone again. It's self induced anyway as the one person I'd want to be with at midnight will probably be doing his own thing. No, I'm not trying to incite guilt, I just haven't reached the point where I can imagine being with anyone else so I'd rather be alone. My choice and I'll be just fine as I've spent a few New Years on my own and it was no big deal. So maybe I'll just work. We'll see.
That's it for now. I hope those who celebrate have a good holiday! Have fun and be merry!