Whatever.....
Tired of the bullshit, tired of trying to be nice, tired of trying to live up to standards I will never reach. Just tired. I mean fuck it. Im not going out of my way for anyone anymore. Im trying hard not to go back to being a total bitch but I will be damned if Im going to have my feelings hurt for reaching out. Im tired of the whining, pissing, and moaning and the poor poor pitiful me acts, tired of trying to be sympathetic to people who don't appreciate it and Im tired of catering to other people's moodswings. I have enough of my own to cater to. To everyone who are my friends, you know where I live and you know the number. If you want to hang out give me a call and come on over, if you don't stay home...I don't care either way, believe me. And to the person who emailed me in private but won't allow responses...next time DON'T. I mean don't dump your shit on me and your petty problems asking for my advice and then not leave a way to respond. And for the 2 people....3 people actually who have contempleted suicide b/c they were dumped, afraid of being dumped, depressed or whatever remember this. Suicide is the cowards way out and there comes a time in your life when you have to get some balls(the female too)quit whining about how miserable your life is or will be w/o your SO or crush and do something about it. I mean come on it is getting old already. If you were going to kill yourself b/c your boy/girlfriend left you then you would be dead. Since you are not dead you are seeking attention. Well Im not in the mood to give it. I have tip toed around feelings for a while now and it just isn't me. If this hurts your feelings then I am sorry but the private pleas for attention are getting on my nerves. Cater to yourself for a change instead of expecting everyone to create your perfect fantasy world. And for god sakes if your life is so miserable...DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!!! That doesn't mean find another emotional crutch to lean on it means have the strength to stand ON YOUR OWN. If you can't be happy ladies and gentlemen by yourself and with yourself then you WILL NEVER BE HAPPY with someone!!!