Pop Rocks, Coke, and Anxiety Attacks...
I have a list I keep under my pillow of things that make me happy - it ranges from the ultra simple pleasures of good coffee and clove cigarettes to kissing the guy I love. I have to update it again since things are in a constant state of change in my pathetic existence.
Always nice to have a new guy in your life, and I have a lovely guy I talk to on the phone and chat with during times when he isn't out playing. Cody... so cute my Cody too. He lives close enough to be a reality, but far enough away for me to feel safe. See I'm screwed up, I'm afraid to have a valid relationship at the moment. One where I actually go out on dates, potentially let him see me naked...seems scary somehow.
It turns out if my roomie does 8 hours of overtime a week, she makes more money than I was making in a 35 hour week at my job, and she needed the daycare so - ta-dah! I'm unemployed. I'm scared half to death, nearly 27 years old, and I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I know I need to make a decision, but I'm so scared of making the WRONG decision...it's idiotic.
*sigh* well, enough whining for today, just felt like updating my life on here - that I so rarely update.
Always nice to have a new guy in your life, and I have a lovely guy I talk to on the phone and chat with during times when he isn't out playing. Cody... so cute my Cody too. He lives close enough to be a reality, but far enough away for me to feel safe. See I'm screwed up, I'm afraid to have a valid relationship at the moment. One where I actually go out on dates, potentially let him see me naked...seems scary somehow.
It turns out if my roomie does 8 hours of overtime a week, she makes more money than I was making in a 35 hour week at my job, and she needed the daycare so - ta-dah! I'm unemployed. I'm scared half to death, nearly 27 years old, and I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I know I need to make a decision, but I'm so scared of making the WRONG decision...it's idiotic.
*sigh* well, enough whining for today, just felt like updating my life on here - that I so rarely update.