RE: Today's Post
Titles are over rated
Time: 10:57am
Mood: Happy, relieved, confused, content, frustrated, lazy
Music: On Line Streaming of 92.5 The Wolf
Damn it. I can hear the staff in the other room talking about what they
got me for Christmas. Damn it. This means I need to get them each
something. Gah!
Last night I took Joel to dinner (Chinese yummy) and I opened the door
to talk about our communication issues. Actually, it started at the
house because he came up behind me and started groping me and I said out
loud, "We have communication issues and you are groping my rear end." It
was a lousy thing to do- but I was just fed up after the exchange at
Dad's on Sunday night. He asked if I was okay and I said, no but that I
will be. We went to dinner and we talked about the sister comment and he
said that if anything he loves me more deeply than even his family.
Because the love he feels for me goes back to childhood. (I met him
because he had carved I LOVE QUARTNY in the utility box of the
counselor's cabin at camp when he was 11 and I was 10- LMAO!) And that
he loves me as a wife, a friend and a sister so his love is even
stronger. And he saw no problems with how we communicate. We talked
about a lot of issues- the infertility and communication being the
biggest ones.
It was interesting. It made me think about that day at the Corona St.
house when he was lying on the couch looking out the window and I asked
him what he was thinking and he said- "Nothing" and I was like, no-
really, what are you thinking. And I guess he has the ability to just
turn off his brain. I'd love to have that ability. I am sure this talk
was overdue. I am not completely convinced that this is the end of it.
But it's a start. He said that he didn't see the fertility issue as time
imperative when it 1st came up 3 years ago. And I reminded him that it
could take years to get pregnant even with fertility specialists. And
that given my Hydrocephalus that it is something that will require a lot
of Dr's care, I don't want to be having babies at 40 like our moms did.
Especially if we are getting fertility drugs- I don't need twins at 40.
He immediately said that at the New Year he'd get tested. I told him to
slow down, that now we are dealing with his health issues and I think we
need to get that in order 1st. That hadn't been an issue before now. But
Billiekai said that she didn't think his getting tested would be a bad
idea. So we'll see.
We got the statement for the last round of his care last night. $6300.
Gratefully he has insurance so he only owes $50. I shudder to imagine
what my bills have been. Eeks.
Tonight will be an all nighter to get the house in order and the tree
trimmed before tomorrow night. Joel's dad Wes and his girlfriend Nancy
will be coming over to cook us dinner. The tree looks pretty puny in the
living room. We didn't do a big tree search this year. We just got one
at King Soopers. So the one we got is about 6ft. We won't need the step
ladder this year to decorate it. LOL- I think it's the vaulted ceilings
that make it look so small.
GOALS FOR WEDNESDAY 12/19/07:
PERSONAL: 20 minutes of self care- A hot bubble bath with candles!
PROFESSIONAL: Complete line item justification and rework the
HCBS/Medicaid numbers for my budget.
PHYSICAL: Work out with Zac for an hour
SPIRITUAL: Prayer for awareness and openness
GRATEFULNESS:
* The beginning of better communication
* I am halfway through the day
* I am able to stream on line music
* It is beautiful outside
* I have super healthy teeth - no cavities in 34 years. Go me!
* Christmas Eve is paid holiday for me
THINGS I HAVE LEARNED:
1. Everyone communicates differently, the trick is figuring out
how others communicate.
2. I will be going to New York in January to be there for my Dad's
surgery.
3. This next year is going to be super expensive in travel
expenses
4. I have a long night ahead of me
5. I am physically lonely
Courtney Schwella Todd
In-Home Care Services Manager
Senior's Resource Center
Email: ctodd@SRCAging.org
Direct Line: 303-235-6929
Fax: 303-235-6990
http://www.srcaging.org/
Time: 10:57am
Mood: Happy, relieved, confused, content, frustrated, lazy
Music: On Line Streaming of 92.5 The Wolf
Damn it. I can hear the staff in the other room talking about what they
got me for Christmas. Damn it. This means I need to get them each
something. Gah!
Last night I took Joel to dinner (Chinese yummy) and I opened the door
to talk about our communication issues. Actually, it started at the
house because he came up behind me and started groping me and I said out
loud, "We have communication issues and you are groping my rear end." It
was a lousy thing to do- but I was just fed up after the exchange at
Dad's on Sunday night. He asked if I was okay and I said, no but that I
will be. We went to dinner and we talked about the sister comment and he
said that if anything he loves me more deeply than even his family.
Because the love he feels for me goes back to childhood. (I met him
because he had carved I LOVE QUARTNY in the utility box of the
counselor's cabin at camp when he was 11 and I was 10- LMAO!) And that
he loves me as a wife, a friend and a sister so his love is even
stronger. And he saw no problems with how we communicate. We talked
about a lot of issues- the infertility and communication being the
biggest ones.
It was interesting. It made me think about that day at the Corona St.
house when he was lying on the couch looking out the window and I asked
him what he was thinking and he said- "Nothing" and I was like, no-
really, what are you thinking. And I guess he has the ability to just
turn off his brain. I'd love to have that ability. I am sure this talk
was overdue. I am not completely convinced that this is the end of it.
But it's a start. He said that he didn't see the fertility issue as time
imperative when it 1st came up 3 years ago. And I reminded him that it
could take years to get pregnant even with fertility specialists. And
that given my Hydrocephalus that it is something that will require a lot
of Dr's care, I don't want to be having babies at 40 like our moms did.
Especially if we are getting fertility drugs- I don't need twins at 40.
He immediately said that at the New Year he'd get tested. I told him to
slow down, that now we are dealing with his health issues and I think we
need to get that in order 1st. That hadn't been an issue before now. But
Billiekai said that she didn't think his getting tested would be a bad
idea. So we'll see.
We got the statement for the last round of his care last night. $6300.
Gratefully he has insurance so he only owes $50. I shudder to imagine
what my bills have been. Eeks.
Tonight will be an all nighter to get the house in order and the tree
trimmed before tomorrow night. Joel's dad Wes and his girlfriend Nancy
will be coming over to cook us dinner. The tree looks pretty puny in the
living room. We didn't do a big tree search this year. We just got one
at King Soopers. So the one we got is about 6ft. We won't need the step
ladder this year to decorate it. LOL- I think it's the vaulted ceilings
that make it look so small.
GOALS FOR WEDNESDAY 12/19/07:
PERSONAL: 20 minutes of self care- A hot bubble bath with candles!
PROFESSIONAL: Complete line item justification and rework the
HCBS/Medicaid numbers for my budget.
PHYSICAL: Work out with Zac for an hour
SPIRITUAL: Prayer for awareness and openness
GRATEFULNESS:
* The beginning of better communication
* I am halfway through the day
* I am able to stream on line music
* It is beautiful outside
* I have super healthy teeth - no cavities in 34 years. Go me!
* Christmas Eve is paid holiday for me
THINGS I HAVE LEARNED:
1. Everyone communicates differently, the trick is figuring out
how others communicate.
2. I will be going to New York in January to be there for my Dad's
surgery.
3. This next year is going to be super expensive in travel
expenses
4. I have a long night ahead of me
5. I am physically lonely
Courtney Schwella Todd
In-Home Care Services Manager
Senior's Resource Center
Email: ctodd@SRCAging.org
Direct Line: 303-235-6929
Fax: 303-235-6990
http://www.srcaging.org/