"i say, dont you know? You say, you dont know..."
so, i've got this first block "spare" now. no more math class ever in my life. isnt that the weirdest thing i ever felt? yes it is.
i passed math with an 80, and the exam with a 49... pretty bad, but i still passed. and now i only have two more english classes, both watching "cry the beloved country" movie, then tomorrow writing a movie review on it. And then monday is pretty much free, except i think i am going to work on my george stuff. i am so totally going to fail that class, sadly enough. or at least pass with only a 50. or something. maybe i should start doing some work.
So, what's everyone doing this spring break. i have absolutely nothing at all to do (thanks reuben.... JK) and i want to go someplace, say winnipeg or saskatoon or even yorkton or brandon.. or regina even. i need to find some material for my dress, and i want to go to a value village.... but then again no one wants to hang out with me because i have boy germs on me, so i doubt if anyone will say "yeah, lets go!"...... at any rate, i'm free if anyone wants to do anything. Oh yeah, i also want to buy some shoes...
So i get this feeling that everyone in the world thinks i'm ugly and smell funny. yesterday i was walking through the resource center and one guy nearly fell off his chair laughing at me. or thats what it seemed like, at least. and also a girl was sitting with her friend and she was talking like i was the ugliest person ever, or something, and her friend who knows breta was like "thats..." a i didnt hear exactly what she said but i think it was my name.
but on a happier, if weirder note, i was walking down the stairs today and this guy, dunno who he was besides the fact that i havent seen him very much before, was running/hurrying up the stairs, and just when he looked at me, he tripped on the stair and dropped his binders and nearly fell on his face. i almost said "are you okay?" but then he started to get up, and i kept on going. when i reached the bottom of the stairs i thought "poor guy" and proceeded in wondering whether or not he felt embarrassed.
and now i'm sitting here in the resource center and Minion just walked in then walked out. and tadpole is walkng by. and cith was here for a while, but he left. because he saw that i was here, i'm pretty sure. any time anyone sees me their like "oops! about turn, and now lets pretend we were never here...."
yesterday while waiting for my bus before jazz, so i could get my saxophone from my sister, i was standing there talking to joyce very nicely when suddenly this girl named alisha(reuben might remember her) came up and was like "Hi joyce!" in this really sticky-sweet voice. i stood there for about 5 minutes with a smile plastered onto my face staring at the ground and the people around me untill i felt like i was going to crack. its amazing how well some people can ignore someone standing right beside them, as if i was part of the wall or something. not that i actually wanted her to notice me, but it was just really weird to be shunned like that.
but then i guess i should be used to it. after all, i'm getting pretty good at not existing. especially when it comes to certain people i used to know. used to, whats the word, love? but other than that, i'm just invisible i guess.
except to the people i want to be invisible too, like the ones who laugh at me and stare at me and are like "oh, she's ugly"
hmm, cith is back, and he's listening to his i-pod that i'm guessing he got for christmas because he didnt have one before the break and then he came back and compared ipods with adam.
haha random thought: "my ipod's bigger than your ipod"... okay maybe that wasnt funny at. maybe that was stupid. i thought it was funny. like a conversation that some guys might have with each other. "my car's faster than your car. my dad's stronger than your dad. my ipods bigger than your ipod."
okay i should completely shut up. i have been typing for like..... i dunno half an hour or something. it feels like it anyways. my arms are sore. but that could be because i did 100 (girly) pushups yesterday. it was fun. my bed is fuzzy and blue and cozy and i want to sleep in it forever, but i didnt have breakfast today so i;m hungry.
Cith also has a new watch that i am jealous of because its white and wrist-bandy, kinda like the watch that i want, except i want a black one.
since i'm talking about cith again, i might as well mention the funny story about him of last night.
Mr. J was talking about how that one guy, chris noble or what ever his name is, dated his 13 year old cousin, and weepjees said "that makes two of us", and amanda started laughing alot then started blushing and then Mr. J was like, "woah that just clued in when your face turned red" and the whole class laughed a bit. then later on in the class weepjees was doing something random, not sure what, but it involved sticking his but in ciths face, and mr. J was like "man weepjees, first your 13-yr old cousin, and now your... i dunno... friend who is a boy!" and cith actually turned like red and splotchy. it was like, awww poor embarrased little boy.
and everyone laughed again. like always.
everyone always laughs.
i'm really getting hungry. how come this room always smells like popcorn. my back is sore. i think i need a massage.
speaking of wich, i think i am going to find a way to apprentience as a massage therapist for a while before i actually go to school. like university school. Massage therapy is a pretty good trade, if you ask me, and it is pretty well paying too. and i have been told that i already have the talent for it. so i might as well. put these "artist" hands of mine to some good use.
i really need a job. uhg. co-op gas station? i dunno. thats just weird. but where else can i work in this dratted town. nowhere, thats for sure.
well, this post is getting long enought that if i write any more i am going to have to cut it, so i'm out for now. yay.
i passed math with an 80, and the exam with a 49... pretty bad, but i still passed. and now i only have two more english classes, both watching "cry the beloved country" movie, then tomorrow writing a movie review on it. And then monday is pretty much free, except i think i am going to work on my george stuff. i am so totally going to fail that class, sadly enough. or at least pass with only a 50. or something. maybe i should start doing some work.
So, what's everyone doing this spring break. i have absolutely nothing at all to do (thanks reuben.... JK) and i want to go someplace, say winnipeg or saskatoon or even yorkton or brandon.. or regina even. i need to find some material for my dress, and i want to go to a value village.... but then again no one wants to hang out with me because i have boy germs on me, so i doubt if anyone will say "yeah, lets go!"...... at any rate, i'm free if anyone wants to do anything. Oh yeah, i also want to buy some shoes...
So i get this feeling that everyone in the world thinks i'm ugly and smell funny. yesterday i was walking through the resource center and one guy nearly fell off his chair laughing at me. or thats what it seemed like, at least. and also a girl was sitting with her friend and she was talking like i was the ugliest person ever, or something, and her friend who knows breta was like "thats..." a i didnt hear exactly what she said but i think it was my name.
but on a happier, if weirder note, i was walking down the stairs today and this guy, dunno who he was besides the fact that i havent seen him very much before, was running/hurrying up the stairs, and just when he looked at me, he tripped on the stair and dropped his binders and nearly fell on his face. i almost said "are you okay?" but then he started to get up, and i kept on going. when i reached the bottom of the stairs i thought "poor guy" and proceeded in wondering whether or not he felt embarrassed.
and now i'm sitting here in the resource center and Minion just walked in then walked out. and tadpole is walkng by. and cith was here for a while, but he left. because he saw that i was here, i'm pretty sure. any time anyone sees me their like "oops! about turn, and now lets pretend we were never here...."
yesterday while waiting for my bus before jazz, so i could get my saxophone from my sister, i was standing there talking to joyce very nicely when suddenly this girl named alisha(reuben might remember her) came up and was like "Hi joyce!" in this really sticky-sweet voice. i stood there for about 5 minutes with a smile plastered onto my face staring at the ground and the people around me untill i felt like i was going to crack. its amazing how well some people can ignore someone standing right beside them, as if i was part of the wall or something. not that i actually wanted her to notice me, but it was just really weird to be shunned like that.
but then i guess i should be used to it. after all, i'm getting pretty good at not existing. especially when it comes to certain people i used to know. used to, whats the word, love? but other than that, i'm just invisible i guess.
except to the people i want to be invisible too, like the ones who laugh at me and stare at me and are like "oh, she's ugly"
hmm, cith is back, and he's listening to his i-pod that i'm guessing he got for christmas because he didnt have one before the break and then he came back and compared ipods with adam.
haha random thought: "my ipod's bigger than your ipod"... okay maybe that wasnt funny at. maybe that was stupid. i thought it was funny. like a conversation that some guys might have with each other. "my car's faster than your car. my dad's stronger than your dad. my ipods bigger than your ipod."
okay i should completely shut up. i have been typing for like..... i dunno half an hour or something. it feels like it anyways. my arms are sore. but that could be because i did 100 (girly) pushups yesterday. it was fun. my bed is fuzzy and blue and cozy and i want to sleep in it forever, but i didnt have breakfast today so i;m hungry.
Cith also has a new watch that i am jealous of because its white and wrist-bandy, kinda like the watch that i want, except i want a black one.
since i'm talking about cith again, i might as well mention the funny story about him of last night.
Mr. J was talking about how that one guy, chris noble or what ever his name is, dated his 13 year old cousin, and weepjees said "that makes two of us", and amanda started laughing alot then started blushing and then Mr. J was like, "woah that just clued in when your face turned red" and the whole class laughed a bit. then later on in the class weepjees was doing something random, not sure what, but it involved sticking his but in ciths face, and mr. J was like "man weepjees, first your 13-yr old cousin, and now your... i dunno... friend who is a boy!" and cith actually turned like red and splotchy. it was like, awww poor embarrased little boy.
and everyone laughed again. like always.
everyone always laughs.
i'm really getting hungry. how come this room always smells like popcorn. my back is sore. i think i need a massage.
speaking of wich, i think i am going to find a way to apprentience as a massage therapist for a while before i actually go to school. like university school. Massage therapy is a pretty good trade, if you ask me, and it is pretty well paying too. and i have been told that i already have the talent for it. so i might as well. put these "artist" hands of mine to some good use.
i really need a job. uhg. co-op gas station? i dunno. thats just weird. but where else can i work in this dratted town. nowhere, thats for sure.
well, this post is getting long enought that if i write any more i am going to have to cut it, so i'm out for now. yay.