The Swirl of Emotions
Hello Mr. Journal...Oh how I love being able to turn to you when the rest of the world cannot know what's going on in this mind of mine. Yes, yes...based on the title you can pretty much guess what's up. Michelle and I can't really exist...she doesn't want to..or maybe she does...or maybe she's just completely fucked up in the head...who knows. I just know that I can't wait any longer for someones trust when they don't want to give it..you know me..trust is more important than anything else in life..without trust, I'd rather be dead.
Next topic: Evey! Yay...she makes me so happy sometimes...and other times, I just wanna tie her up and hide her from the world. Why? Oh, that's an easy question...How would I do it is the harder one to answer..anyway, to answer you, I want to simply to take her away from that evil hell she's in right now..I'll be glad when school is done for her so she can actually RELAX! Oh yes..relaxing is good...without A3 to bother me, I've been relaxing..well, kinda..:P
I still wish you'd see how much I care..you can interfere now, but only if it's what your heart wants. You see, I can't interfere because I respect Brian too much...but..but...too much of me wants to and it's so not fun to fight with my inner demons...they win sometimes, but not this time..*Evil cackle*..Yeah, I think I've gone insane.
Oooo..A3...Heh...amusement...Apparently I've been cheating and stealing accounts..HAH! Like I'd actually cheat...ok, ok..so I would..but it sucks for them doesn't it. Poor buggers..I hope that game crumbles..best thing is, Half the staff are happy I brought them some amusement...oh, and Juls might gimme her tap..Oh joys...that's if I choose to return to that game. Who knows. :)
Well, that's my entry for today...I don't know if there's much more...Oh yeah, I applied for a programming job for Neopets again today. I might get it..I hope I get it..I could use the change of life. I need to just change everything around me..maybe then I can get somewhere...or maybe this is where I'm supposed to be...who knows. -_-
Next topic: Evey! Yay...she makes me so happy sometimes...and other times, I just wanna tie her up and hide her from the world. Why? Oh, that's an easy question...How would I do it is the harder one to answer..anyway, to answer you, I want to simply to take her away from that evil hell she's in right now..I'll be glad when school is done for her so she can actually RELAX! Oh yes..relaxing is good...without A3 to bother me, I've been relaxing..well, kinda..:P
I still wish you'd see how much I care..you can interfere now, but only if it's what your heart wants. You see, I can't interfere because I respect Brian too much...but..but...too much of me wants to and it's so not fun to fight with my inner demons...they win sometimes, but not this time..*Evil cackle*..Yeah, I think I've gone insane.
Oooo..A3...Heh...amusement...Apparently I've been cheating and stealing accounts..HAH! Like I'd actually cheat...ok, ok..so I would..but it sucks for them doesn't it. Poor buggers..I hope that game crumbles..best thing is, Half the staff are happy I brought them some amusement...oh, and Juls might gimme her tap..Oh joys...that's if I choose to return to that game. Who knows. :)
Well, that's my entry for today...I don't know if there's much more...Oh yeah, I applied for a programming job for Neopets again today. I might get it..I hope I get it..I could use the change of life. I need to just change everything around me..maybe then I can get somewhere...or maybe this is where I'm supposed to be...who knows. -_-