i'm completely alone at a table of friends
Sometimes I feel like I just don't speak at a volume or pitch that is audible to the people around me. Stuff comes out of my mouth and just gets lost in the air. I always seem to start out the night in a really good mood, only to watch it degrade over the course of a meal. I'm just sort of invisible. I don't have anything to say that matters, even if it ought to. I feel sort of superfluous. Relationships exist amongst everyone, and those involving me are just sort of extra and unimportant. It just makes me want to frown, stand up, and go away.
What a bust.
What a bust.