Weight of the world off my shoulders
Well... I am incredibly happy and relieved and optimistic and... all that.
Me and Karen had our talk tonight, and it was just beautiful. It was a little awkward, but we were both honest and mature with eachother, and it turned out so well. We met some agreements and made plans to work on things. We both going to work on bettering our friendship and just being better friends.
We've always had an air of tension between us. Many things that we just never mentioned or talked about, but we both knew. I knew she knew I knew. She knew I knew she knew. I know. She knows. So on and so forth. We didnt actually bring any of these things up, but we acknowledged their existence, whatever they were. Maybe one day we'll bring them to the forefront, maybe we won't. The goal, however, is to not have any more things like that. There were things I was afraid of saying or doing in front of her and vice versa... and while this will still exist, it wont exist very much. The goal is to have as open a relationship as we can. I want her to feel like she can come to me about anything, and vice versa.
She told me her plans and her intentions from this past weekend, and it put me at ease. I'm still gonna do a recap of this past weekend, but because of clarifications, there wont be as much detail, bias, or bitterness.
I told her that I'll always be there for her and my arms will always be open. I am not expecting a relationship, only hoping. If she turns around, I'll be here. And even if she doesn't, I'll still be here. I'll always have her back and I'll always look out for her and I'll always do whatever I can for her. I'll never let her down, even if I could. For her, anything. I'll be the best friend I can be. And I told her that.
Much more came from the conversation... but that's the basis.
Now I need to go to sleep. Tons of Algebra studying to occur tomorrow... Shit.
Me and Karen had our talk tonight, and it was just beautiful. It was a little awkward, but we were both honest and mature with eachother, and it turned out so well. We met some agreements and made plans to work on things. We both going to work on bettering our friendship and just being better friends.
We've always had an air of tension between us. Many things that we just never mentioned or talked about, but we both knew. I knew she knew I knew. She knew I knew she knew. I know. She knows. So on and so forth. We didnt actually bring any of these things up, but we acknowledged their existence, whatever they were. Maybe one day we'll bring them to the forefront, maybe we won't. The goal, however, is to not have any more things like that. There were things I was afraid of saying or doing in front of her and vice versa... and while this will still exist, it wont exist very much. The goal is to have as open a relationship as we can. I want her to feel like she can come to me about anything, and vice versa.
She told me her plans and her intentions from this past weekend, and it put me at ease. I'm still gonna do a recap of this past weekend, but because of clarifications, there wont be as much detail, bias, or bitterness.
I told her that I'll always be there for her and my arms will always be open. I am not expecting a relationship, only hoping. If she turns around, I'll be here. And even if she doesn't, I'll still be here. I'll always have her back and I'll always look out for her and I'll always do whatever I can for her. I'll never let her down, even if I could. For her, anything. I'll be the best friend I can be. And I told her that.
Much more came from the conversation... but that's the basis.
Now I need to go to sleep. Tons of Algebra studying to occur tomorrow... Shit.