Walking, thinking, and overhearing

[dr_macgregor]

*Rachel couldn't bring herself to go back to the labs after chatting with Carson. She wandered around, nodding absently at people that greeted her. She wasn't terribly sure what to feel. Heartache, that his love may simply be a reflection of hers? Guilt, that she could inflict such emotion on someone as to make them do odd things? Despair,

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[engineer_radek]

*Radek quickly made his way to Rae's room. As he approached, the doors opened and he was grateful for this mercy. Silently thanking Atlantis for her consideration, he made his way to the bed. He only spared the time to remove his shoes and labcoat before curling up on the bed in a fetal possition, his back to the door, hugging Rae's pillow and breathing in her scent. After a few minutes he was able to go to his calm place and relaxed*

*some time later--it could have been minutes or hours--the door opened and he was hit with a wave of emotion so strong that it knocked him from his calm place. He knew who it was without turning to look. He was discovering that each of his lovers had a 'scent' for lack of a better term and this one was undeniably Rae's, his heart's. His Rezavý. He remained where he was, struggling to calm himself again*

*It became bearable when the music began. It was a haunting melody and his love played it well. It helped him focus and he could feel himself relaxing into his calm place without meditation. He laid there, listening in awe at her skill. She calms as she plays. She is not happy by any stretch of the imagination--he doesn't need this empathy to see that--but she is calm and that helps keep him calm, even after silence falls. He remains where he was when he first laid down, curled around her pillow in a fetal possition, back to the door, but watching her now. He's relaxed and at peace for the moment*

[dr_macgregor]

*The last notes of the music die off and Rachel slowly moves the fiddle from off her shoulder. After a moment, she places it back on the case and reverently draws her fingers across the rich dark wood. A pale dust gathers on her fingers near the strings, and she lightly touches the tip of one finger to her tongue. It's bitter and sharp and really not good for her, but she communes with Sally this way. Rae then releases the tension on the bow and puts it inside the case before shutting the lid. She takes a deep breath and locks the intrument away. Rachel turns towards the back of her rooms and stops. A figure in the half-light lays there, watching her. Only one person would so lay in her bed. Somehow, it's strangely easy to keep calm, to watch him as well without drowning in the river of heartache so deep below.*

//I didn't realize you were here. Forgive me for disturbing your rest.//

[engineer_radek]

*his lips twitch in a weak imitation of a smile* //It is your room. I should be asking your pardon for intruding, but I could think of no where else I would rather be.//

*Radek hesitates then makes as if to get up, something he obviously doesn't want to do* //Forgive me for intruding. I will leave you alone.//

[dr_macgregor]

*She moves forward without thinking, drawn to him.*

//No, please. You're not intruding. Don't go.//

*It briefly flashes through her mind that she shouldn't be doing this, shouldn't be encouraging him. Shouldn't be sitting beside him on her bed in the dim room and reaching out to touch his arm. But Gods be damned if she can't help herself from smiling at him and trying desperately to believe he really loves her. So shove the other things back in the box, Rachel, she tells herself. Until he is better, give him only compassion and caring and your heart... All that he already has.*

//I take it you spoke with Carson, as did I? This will just take time, that's all. I'll just have to be more aware of what I'm feeling around you for a while. I... I can't bear the thought of hurting you in any way...//

[engineer_radek]

*he relaxes even more with her hand on his arm and his own eyes close in the pleasure contact brings him. Not sexual, just...pleasure* //Yes, he did. And, no, my heart, it is real.// *knowing eyes watch her* //Even with the empathy, it could not be as strong if there were not a shred of truth to the feelings.//

*his smile widens slightly, becoming more true* //Is obvious this is on your mind.// *one hand lets go of the pillow to trace her cheek* //I do love you, my heart. My Rezavý.//

[dr_macgregor]

*Her hand trembles a little as he voices her own fear. Yet... There is truth in his eyes as he reassures her. Her heart eases a little, and she lets the love flood through her. Rachel cups her hand over the one on her face adn turns to press kisses into his palm. She ignores it if a single tear flavors the kiss a little.*

//My love, my life, my light. I was so... It hurt to think I might have made you feel something that wouldn't otherwise be there, as if I were forcing you into something, projecting.//

*Another tear touches his palm.*

//I just... I thought I'd given you my heart and might in reality be bouncing it off a mirror... Gods, forgive me, milovaný, forgive my lack of faith, my doubts, please... I do love you, no matter what anyone says...//

*Rachel moved, sliding down the bed to lay on her side next to him. She moved into his arms, enveloping herself in his warm embrace.*

[engineer_radek]

*his smile widens, love in his eyes even as her own hits him, sending him into a state of euphoria* //No, my love, it is not you. You made me feel nothing that wasn't already there.//

*Radek kisses her gently, tracing the path of the tears with his lips then sharing them with her* //I love you, my Rezavý.//

*he reaches up and brushes her hair behind her ear* //Carson sent me home, to my rooms, until I could control this. John was...// *Radek grimaced* //...not helping.// *he sighs softly* //I know some meditation techniques from my time in the military. That is what I was doing when you entered. I didn't want to be alone, didn't want you to be alone and I knew what thoughts would be going on in here.// *he teasingly taps her temple*

*he frowns after a moment* //My love...what put you in such a mood? The music, the melody, was lovely. What you played. But sad. What put that in you?//

[dr_macgregor]

*Rachel wasn't sure she was capable of not loving this man. May she never have to find out. She tensed a little at his question, keeping her face next to his throat. How to word it so she didn't set him off? Yes, what the women had said hurt. She wasn't a slut and hated the idea that people thought she would so easily sleep with just anyone. Even if she felt some affection for the others, it just... wasn't her to be so free, so open, not so soon.*

//I... I just overheard some gossip. Nothing for you to worry about, love. I happen to know they'll be returning to Earth on the Daedelus, there's no reason to speak of it. We have better things to think about, ne?//

*Rachel inhaled, reveling in the scent of Radek's skin and hair so closer to her mouth. She pressed a warm kiss to his throat. This was real and true, and all that mattered. Not what was outside that door.*

[engineer_radek]

*he almost makes an issue of it, but his love is in his arms and the love she has been broadcasting is having an effect now that his worries for her are mostly settled. Plus, he can deny her nothing*

//Yes, love, we do.// *he runs his hands down her arms, taking her hands in his and bringing them up to his lips. He kisses each fingertip lightly then her palms, wrists...he gently rolls her onto her back and continues up her arms, going back and forth up her arms until he reaches the hollow of her throat*

*Once there, he pauses, whispering* //You are my goddess, Rachel, just as surely as the Lady on my back. Anything you wish, my love, my heart, and it is yours.// *he props himself up on his elbows beside her, leaning over to trace her cheekbone*

[dr_macgregor]

*She shivers as he moves over her. A deep ache of beauty comes into her heart on his words, his promise, his proclamation. How could she have doubted something like this? Smiling, Rae carefull take off his glasses and sets them on the nightstand behind her. She rolls back to him, scooting close enough that her body is flush against his, and places her hands on his face. She touches his forehead with her own, similar to an Athosian greeting. The words must be said without glass or barriers between them, soul to soul. A feeling of timelessness and age fills her. It takes a minute to recognize this. It's been a few years, but she is more than aware when a deity is present, when Gods and Goddesses witness things between their devotees. Rachel's voice is soft, but almost echoes with truth and promise. With the weight of a sacred seal upon her words, she speaks to Radek.*

//You cannot possess me, for I belong to myself. Yet all that I am, have been, and ever will be is yours. Let your love be the light to which I wake, and your name that which I cry aloud in the dark. I give you the first bite from my plate and the first draught from my cup. Let the honeycomb be all the sweeter for having come from my hand. A shield to your back, the staff that supports you, the bread that nourishes you. Ever and always, Radek Aleš Zelenka.//

*Rachel pauses a moment, then gently kisses him, her mouth light and soft and sweet. If he wants to be hers, then she will give everything to him. Her hand rest on his chest, warm against his shirt.*

[engineer_radek]

*Radek's eyes close, face a mask of bliss, true happiness. He feels Her in the air as well. In a way he hasn't since he got Her image engraved on his back. He knows this is Right and does not hesitate*

//You possess me, for I belong to you. All that I am, have been, and ever will be is yours. Let your love be the light to which I wake, and your name that which I cry aloud in the dark. I give you the first bite from my plate and the first draught from my cup. Let the honeycomb be all the sweeter for having come from my hand. A shield to your back, the staff that supports you, the bread that nourishes you. Ever and always, my Rezavý, my Rachel Ann MacGregor.//

*hand mirroring hers, he places it over her heart then bends to kiss her. His back tingles as warmth suffuses him. He feels it travel up his spine, along his arm and into her from his hand to her heart and from his heart to her hand. He can tell she feels it too from her gasp*

*The moment seems Right so he leans into her, kissing her as he guides her onto her back. This is their third time together and that, too, seems Right. Everything about this is Right and he thanks Morena with everything he has. His touch borders on reverent as he strips her of her clothes. Only when she is bare does he quickly, efficiently, remove his own then rejoins her*

*Radek trails kisses down Rae's body, pausing to lap at her nipples until they are hard peaks then continuing downward. He swirls his tongue in and around her navel, blowing lightly over it*

*Further down he moves, bypassing her core to worship her legs and feet. Her knees, ankles, even her toes are kissed before he moves back up, finally stopping at that which defines a woman. He is gentle as he parts her and for a moment he just stares in wonder. When she begins to squirm impatiently, he leans in to kiss the lush lips of her womanhood, the hard nub peaking out at him and finally, finally, him lips and tongue turn their attention to the heart of her*

*He laps at her, drinking his fill of her until she is on the edge of climax. A light touch on his mind has him climbing up her body, kissing every inch of skin he can reach. When he is eye to eye with her, he takes a moment to caress her face, tracing the contours of her brow...nose...cheekbones...chin...and, at last, her lips. He kisses her, his tongue entering her mouth as his length enters her in one thrust*

*Radek pulls away from her lips, gasping. He stares down at her in wonder, in awe* //My goddess...my queen...my heart...my life...you are all this and more to me. I love you, Rachel.// *with each phrase is a shallow thrust into her core. Painfully slow, he rocks in her, his eyes never leaving her's. Soon even this tempo is too much for him and he increases the pace, grinding down so his pelvis rubs her nub with each thrust*

*He manages to hold back until she climaxes, but only just. Her inner walls grip him and he's gone. Her name is only his lips as he fills her. His eyes never leave her's, they never lose the look of wonder and awe. He remains in her, braced on his forearms on either side of her head, just staring down at her* //I do so love you, Rachel. I am yours.//