i'm so sick of everything going wrong.

[dpggunman]

i'm really glad christi and i are back together right now. bc if we were still broken up i'd be extremely devastated. i'm not going to be able to go see christi this weekend like i had planned. i know it sucks. i had this whole thing planned for almost 2 weeks and it has been stressing me out so bad. i had it all planned out down to the very last detail. and 3 days before we leave for GA it all goes to hell. figures. thats my luck. if christi and i were still broken up i wouldnt be handling this well at all. last night i got home and told christi i wasnt coming and i could just tell she was really upset about it. she tried not to think about it too much i could tell. its probably best for her. i on the other hand need to talk when things like this happen. i was getting really upset. so i got off the phone with her and called joe. we had a really good talk. i really feel much better about it. i looked up prices for plane tickets to see the possibilities of flying christi out here for her spring break. if i looked at it correctly, her break is over easter. i dont know how well thats gonna work with her mom and all. but hopefully, because of this bs, her mom will let her come out here. we've already got the money for the ticket. all i need is the passenger. 341 dollars for a round trip ticket. saturday until the next sunday. i think she might even be able to come friday bc thats good friday. everyone is off then. i guess we'll see what happens. i'm dying to see her again. no one could possibly understand what its like to go through this crap the way we are. we belong together but we're so torn apart from eachother right now. if she can come down during her break, it would be even better this way. i hope to God she can. i love her with everything i am.

okay well its 12:45 now. i'm just bored and still a little upset. i just felt like getting on here and messing around. maybe ill feel better after lunch with prince and joe. i guess we'll see. i miss christi so much =(