back in oz
yes - safely back in australia and now over my jetlag. Still trying to get back into the swing of things.
Work is quite depressing at the moment - because there is nobody around. Also, I am feeling very strongly at the moment that my work is not being appreciated because I am female. I'm tired of being the oldest female in the room when at seminars. (I'm not even 30 yet.) Tired of being the only female who goes to lunch after seminars. etc. etc. This is not helped by a so called 'women's forum' the faculty of science is holding (which i'm not invited to - they have invited the 2 non-research active women in the pure maths department instead - although they did invite the applied maths professor who is actually very good.) Anyway I sent a long list of complaints to one of them to take with them. But I am feeling at the moment that there is no point in me persuing a maths career when I'm going to have to work twice as hard to get the same amount of recognition. I won't get a permament job until I can either find a job at a non-sexist department (and every department is at least a little bit sexist, some departments, like swansea are really sexist) or I am twice as good as the other candidates - of course then they may not offer it to me because they might be worried I will leave again. (Maybe I should apply to obscure universities after all?) I have another job interview for Leicester tomorrow. Which I won't get - because it is a phone interview again. To be honest - I don't really know why they are interviewing me again ( the position was not filled last time and they re-advertised it.) They could've employed me last time if they'd wanted to. So I am getting more practice at phone interviews and Leicester gets to have a women on their shortlist. It will be a male only committee again i'm sure. Like in southampton. So the only women who are sucessful in maths are those who can walk into a room full of men and be confident and charming and not be intimidated. What percentage of men do you think can walk into a room full of women and do the same? The only person who is being encouraging to me at the moment is my PhD supervisor. who has in fact offered me work for 4 months. Which I am planning to take - even if I have to quit my postdoc here in sydney early. At least I will have one person who appreciates my work! (actually my boss here also appreciates me - but he is away at the moment.)
Work is quite depressing at the moment - because there is nobody around. Also, I am feeling very strongly at the moment that my work is not being appreciated because I am female. I'm tired of being the oldest female in the room when at seminars. (I'm not even 30 yet.) Tired of being the only female who goes to lunch after seminars. etc. etc. This is not helped by a so called 'women's forum' the faculty of science is holding (which i'm not invited to - they have invited the 2 non-research active women in the pure maths department instead - although they did invite the applied maths professor who is actually very good.) Anyway I sent a long list of complaints to one of them to take with them. But I am feeling at the moment that there is no point in me persuing a maths career when I'm going to have to work twice as hard to get the same amount of recognition. I won't get a permament job until I can either find a job at a non-sexist department (and every department is at least a little bit sexist, some departments, like swansea are really sexist) or I am twice as good as the other candidates - of course then they may not offer it to me because they might be worried I will leave again. (Maybe I should apply to obscure universities after all?) I have another job interview for Leicester tomorrow. Which I won't get - because it is a phone interview again. To be honest - I don't really know why they are interviewing me again ( the position was not filled last time and they re-advertised it.) They could've employed me last time if they'd wanted to. So I am getting more practice at phone interviews and Leicester gets to have a women on their shortlist. It will be a male only committee again i'm sure. Like in southampton. So the only women who are sucessful in maths are those who can walk into a room full of men and be confident and charming and not be intimidated. What percentage of men do you think can walk into a room full of women and do the same? The only person who is being encouraging to me at the moment is my PhD supervisor. who has in fact offered me work for 4 months. Which I am planning to take - even if I have to quit my postdoc here in sydney early. At least I will have one person who appreciates my work! (actually my boss here also appreciates me - but he is away at the moment.)