Too many things on my mind
You know? It's funny how things have changed for me. I think Nebraska was one of the best things that could ever happen to me. And meeting Nate was even better. He showed me how a good Christian relationship is supposed to be like. He showed me that the man wears the pants in the relationship, that if he's not ok with something, I should respect that. And even though it didn't work out, I'm glad it happened because it opened my eyes. I've read three relationship books now, all dealing with God's perspective and how relationships are supposed to go. I find myself settling down now. I'd like to say that I'm preparing myself for my future husband, and I've got standards. Boy do I have standards. I'm so proud of myself, I don't drink I don't party, and God has taken every desire to want a sexual relationship away from me. I'm excited. I'm happy to be alone without a relationship. God knows I'm not ready for a relationship yet, I'm still trying to be the perfect wife. The one who does not get jealous. It's an awesome feeling.
But I can't help but feel saddened by the fact that there is something very heavy on my heart. A friend of mine (well not friend, because he's decided he doesn't want a friendship). But I still consider him a friend, he's started to drink and go to parties and be involved with things that he's never been involved with before. And he says he's finally living? That's not living. I've been there and it got me nowhere. I just wish he could understand. That's not living. He says that this friend he has who has a girl in his bed almost every night doesn't have any morals. So where are his? Where are his morals? Do you think drinking and partying is a good moral? Ugh, I just wish I could tell him, I'm sorry I hurt you. I'm sorry if in any way I led you to this......
But I can't help but feel saddened by the fact that there is something very heavy on my heart. A friend of mine (well not friend, because he's decided he doesn't want a friendship). But I still consider him a friend, he's started to drink and go to parties and be involved with things that he's never been involved with before. And he says he's finally living? That's not living. I've been there and it got me nowhere. I just wish he could understand. That's not living. He says that this friend he has who has a girl in his bed almost every night doesn't have any morals. So where are his? Where are his morals? Do you think drinking and partying is a good moral? Ugh, I just wish I could tell him, I'm sorry I hurt you. I'm sorry if in any way I led you to this......