a closer look...
i have discovered that reuniting with your best friends whom you haven't seen since last summer provides you with the opportunity to look at the past year and learn things about what you've become. i remember the nights we would spend during our vacations, in a diner & then driving aimlessly, filling each other in on the year's juicy details. i had some of the craziest stories, thinking back. this time i couldn't think of anything to say. we laughed over that, in the way that only two people who know each other too well could. the truth is, i hurt somewhere deep inside. i've made alot of mistakes and i get to live with what i've learned, even if it's no one's fault except my own. anyway, once we started talking and laughing like old times, she did what she's always done in our comfortable silences; ask, "how are you really doing?". i smile, like always, and say, "i'm fine, really." and most of the time, i am. but she knows. she also knows i'm different than i was, but still the same person she always knew.
sometimes, that's all you need.