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Wake me up, before you go...

Nov 13, 2006 08:15

Whatever had been driving my body around for the last God only knows how long, was gone. It was the baby, it had to be. Even before Connor and I, even before we did what we did, it had somehow been there. I could feel it squirming around, just below the surface. Leave it to me to think my problems were to small to acknowledge. Don't worry about ( Read more... )

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superhero_son November 13 2006, 14:31:08 UTC

I thought that coming here was a big waste of time ( ... )

badass_slayer November 14 2006, 00:47:00 UTC

Angel's kid led us right to Cordy. I have to admit, at first I didn't think he was gonna and maybe I'd have to beat the snot out of him sooner then I thought, but, in the end the kid came through.

I don't know what Wes was lookin' for. He said we needed to keep Cordy safe but somethin' told me he was overly curious 'bout that baby of hers. He couldn't help it. No matter how hard Wes got, he would always be curious I thought as I glanced over at him on the way up the stairs. His face was like wax, completely expressionless. Well, I could be wrong. Maybe he didn't really give a damn about much of anything. Can't say I blamed him.

Connor kicked in the door. Smooth but unnecessary. If he was showin' off on my behalf, it wasn't workin'. Cor was tryin' to sit up when we got in the room. So much for being unconscious. I guess that was a good thing. 'Cept, she really didn't look happy to see any of us. I get that a lot from this group.

"See, I told you two that she would be fine in here.""Yeah kid, you called it. 'Sup Cor?" Besides the ( ... )

pryce_less November 14 2006, 07:24:01 UTC

Connor was extremely flip about Cordelia's well-being. That didn't bode well. Recently, whether she was good or bad, she had been all that he had been devoted to. Without her, then he would most certainly lose his edge and turn to whatever passions motivated his violently-charged mind. At the moment, now more then ever, we needed to stick together, with Gunn, Fred and Lorne killed, and with the Beast, Angelus and other vampires walking around the city twenty-four hours a day.

I, for that very reason, turned my attentions upon Cordy.

"Yeah kid, you called it. 'Sup Cor?"I hadn't filled Faith in upon everything that had happened with Cordelia, and she was also a bit flip about this, although I was fairly confident that she was ready to assist in any way possible, as long as it was helpful ( ... )

queen_chase November 15 2006, 02:50:42 UTC

It was Connor alright. I could tell by the head splitting crack of the door and he kicked it in. Not to mention the hostility I could see on his extremely blurry face. Man, if I can see any kind of expression in this condition, you know it's gotta be bad. I should have figured he'd still be mad at me for sending him away.

"See, I told you two that she would be fine in here."

The words didn't quite come out like that. Or, they did, but it wasn't the way I heard them. It went more like Sei old ooto atshe woodbe fine in ere. So much for getting my scenes back right away. Hell, what did I need them for anyway? I'd probably just find out none of this was real anyway. I mean, wasn't I suppose to be in a coma. Or at least I was thirty seconds ago.

"Yeah, you called it kid. 'Sup Cor?"

Yaoo cldit kids upcore. That one was a littler harder to translate but from the sound of the voice, I got the gist. Faulty hearing or not, I'd know that was Faiths voice anywhere. So who was the other one? I squinted, and squinted and squinted some more and ( ... )

superhero_son November 15 2006, 03:18:54 UTC

"What is she doing here?"I studied Cordelia. She didn't look at me like I mattered. She didn't look at me like we had been through anything at all ( ... )

badass_slayer November 17 2006, 11:24:18 UTC

Yo, can you say trouble in paradise? Angel's little kidlet here was obviously carrying around some serious pent up aggression towards Cordy here. Not that I could blame him really, she could be some what of a snotty tight ass and she was obviously not thrilled to see me. But, she was still one of the good guys and I'm sure she had a perfectly good reason for wanting Angel's soul removed. A hell of a good reason. End of the world sort of reason. Other wise, what the hell did she think she was doing releasin' Angelus in to the city populous?

"Nice to see you to Cor. Don't mind the kid here. He's just mad I showed him up during some wicked ass vamp slayage earlier."

Dude, whatever had gone down with Cordy and this kid of hers hadn't exactly done wonders in the looks department. I think this might actually be the first time I'd seen miss congeniality herself lookin' all beat up and clearly slummin' it by the looks of this joint. Welcome to my world I thought.

pryce_less November 17 2006, 13:53:42 UTC

"What is she doing here?"

I focused on her. Deception had become part of her being. She had known that we all loved her and used that against us when she had ben manipulated. The baby was gone, though, and with the baby, although there were questions there, hopefully gone was the evil that had been influencing her. She seemed genuine to me, although granted, I wasn't at my full capacities at the moment.

"She's hear to stop Angel, Cordy. Remember, Angel? The one that you were so quick to push into removing his soul?"

Connor was talking about Faith and then he added his own spin of sarcasm and skepticism. Connor was about to spiral out of control. He was teetering on a precipice. I knew the feeling well, except that I had more sense to know that the situation in Los Angeles was more dire then my own personal grievances and pain, currently. Cordelia back would be wonderful.

"Nice to see you to Cor. Don't mind the kid here. He's just mad I showed him up during some wicked ass vamp slayage earlier."I tried to smile as genuinally as I ( ... )

queen_chase November 20 2006, 12:17:32 UTC

Oh God. Gunn,Fred...and Lorne, they were all...

It hurt so bad just to think about it. This was all my fault. I had let that thing take over my body. It had called the Beast and allowed it to blot out the sun. It let Angelus out of the cage and now everyone was dead. My God, how could Wesley even stand to look at me after everything I'd done?

I finally managed to get to my feet. I was still a little dizzy but I think most of that was because of everything Wes had just told me. I remember it, I remember it all. The things I did, the things I said. I mean, I know it wasn't me but that thing, it knew me. It used my memories, my love. It used them on my friends and now they were all dead.

"I remember."

It was all I could say. I was afraid if I tried to say anything else it would come out wrong, or mean like when they first got here. I should have known Faith was here to help but that didn't mean I didn't hate her for what she had done to Wesley the last time she was in LA.

"Wesley, I'm so sorry." I began to cry.

superhero_son November 20 2006, 14:40:17 UTC

"Faith's on our side, Cordelia. She's on the side of good, but we have a lot of problems. Lorne, Gunn and...and Fred...they have all been killed. It's permanent midnight outside and the Beast and Angelus are roaming the streets. Do you remember what has happened recently?"

Yeah, yeah. Faith is good, Cordelia might be back, our friends are dead because they had no business in trying to stop the Beast or Angelus. Cordy's good again, or not possessed by the evil that I had put inside of her.

"I remember."

"What do you remember, Cordy? Do you know what happened to our baby?"

I was virtually seething and had to back myself down.

"Wesley, I'm so sorry."She was sorry for Wesley. She began crying and was sorry that Wesley had lost his friends ( ... )

badass_slayer November 20 2006, 15:33:05 UTC

I couldn't believe it. The reining queen of Sunnydale bitch-hood, was crying. It actually made me feel bad for her, if you can imagine that. There was a lot for her to take in here. Hell, there was a lot for me to take in but the fact she had been the cause of a lot of it, or her kid was, I was still a little unclear on that part, probably made it a hundred times worse.

"You're sorry for Wesley, Cordy? What about for me? I liked Fred and Gunn too. Then, there's the part about me being used by you and our baby dying or whatever happened in this very room. No tears for me, Cordy?"I put my hand on Connors shoulder. He was hurtin', I get that, but comin' down on Cordelia when she was already tryin' to pull herself together probably wasn't helpin' much. He didn't seem to notice, but Cordy did. She looked at Connor like a mother looks at her kid when they fall of their bike and are cryin' about the cut on their knee. So much for happily ever after. That thing Cordy had given birth to had used him every which way to Sunday and there was ( ... )

pryce_less November 21 2006, 05:05:23 UTC

"Wesley, I'm so sorry."

My eyes betrayed me, briefly and the water works began in earnest. I hadn't meant to get this way, but Cordelia was truly back and if anyone over the past years had reached me on every level, whether in being hilarity, or sadness...it was Cordelia, and seeing her good again reminded me of Fred, languishing, eternally gone in the car.

I tried to curtail things as Connor spewed forth venom.

"You're sorry for Wesley, Cordy? What about for me? I liked Fred and Gunn too. Then, there's the part about me being used by you and our baby dying or whatever happened in this very room. No tears for me, Cordy?"

I was more certain then ever that Connor was teetering on a precipice that would lead him somewhere that he wouldn't be able to come back from. He had done some horrific things, but a lot of that could be blamed on Holtz and his background and childhood in a hell dimension.

We needed Connor.

"It wasn't her kid, you gotta remember that."I wiped the tears from my face. "That's correct, Connor. You know that ( ... )

queen_chase November 21 2006, 09:03:36 UTC

Wes' sadness clogged my lungs and Connors anger choked the air right out of them. I couldn't breathe, there was so much pain. The tears in Wes' eyes didn't help but that ok, let him cry for his friends, for Fred. I couldn't erase the things I had done while that thing infested my body but I could allow him this, allow him his moment to grieve ( ... )

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