Well Its about time
I figure i might as well start this thing back up, seeing as how myspace took over the world!!! Fucking insanity i tell ya, its like a damn drug - i dont know why!!!
Chris is the new man of my life, we live down in FLA together. Good relationship, but sometimes i feel like he's here just for the ride ya know ? i dont know if this is what he really wants or not. Oh well i guess. Until all goes wrong i might as well be happy and not jump to conclusions right?!
Anyways, i was rummaging through old pictures and stuff today and god how i miss how i used to live life. Partying with all of my friends, getting into stupid shit left and right, dodging the men in blue almost every saturday night. Going to raves with some of the best people i have ever met in my entire life - the culture of a rave is one of its own. Its love, everyone accepting you with all of your differences yet being completely unified, and all that matters is the music and the respect that comes with it. The beat pulses through your veins and your heart starts to sychronize itself with that of the beat. Its complete and utter insanity, but such beautiful insanity it is. I miss it, i miss everything. I am so lonely down here in florida, even with chris - > and i know no one will take those people who i have met along the way's place. :'(
Why do we have to grow up and get old? I miss my fun and exciting life and my fun and exotic friends.
I can already tell this isnt going to work. And its going to be all my annoying fault. The past few days have been nothing but "me being annoying" i suppose i am nothing but an annoying person. I thought i was just being myself. All ive gotten the past few days are words and phrases like "uuuggghhh" and "god you are so fucking annoying" ....
From day one i felt as though i wasnt good enough... im not. I already know it, i knew it, and i will continue not being good enough.
Chris is the new man of my life, we live down in FLA together. Good relationship, but sometimes i feel like he's here just for the ride ya know ? i dont know if this is what he really wants or not. Oh well i guess. Until all goes wrong i might as well be happy and not jump to conclusions right?!
Anyways, i was rummaging through old pictures and stuff today and god how i miss how i used to live life. Partying with all of my friends, getting into stupid shit left and right, dodging the men in blue almost every saturday night. Going to raves with some of the best people i have ever met in my entire life - the culture of a rave is one of its own. Its love, everyone accepting you with all of your differences yet being completely unified, and all that matters is the music and the respect that comes with it. The beat pulses through your veins and your heart starts to sychronize itself with that of the beat. Its complete and utter insanity, but such beautiful insanity it is. I miss it, i miss everything. I am so lonely down here in florida, even with chris - > and i know no one will take those people who i have met along the way's place. :'(
Why do we have to grow up and get old? I miss my fun and exciting life and my fun and exotic friends.
I can already tell this isnt going to work. And its going to be all my annoying fault. The past few days have been nothing but "me being annoying" i suppose i am nothing but an annoying person. I thought i was just being myself. All ive gotten the past few days are words and phrases like "uuuggghhh" and "god you are so fucking annoying" ....
From day one i felt as though i wasnt good enough... im not. I already know it, i knew it, and i will continue not being good enough.