The Truth
So this week I got a huge suprise. It was great seeing him in the flesh. One on one we talked and it felt great. I did miss him and I will when he is gone away again. But life is to short to miss something you never really had or may never be able to have full heartedly. Like Rick stated why not just tell the truth. Instead of trying to let someone down easy why not just state bluntly "I have no feelings for you" or "I feel no chemistry?" I guess because we all wonder what others will think of us even if we say that we don't care. When it comes to your friends you do no matter what you may say. This is not an attack on anyone or any situation I am just stating an opinion. This past week has been confusing, but extremly exilirating at the same time. Seeing an old lover happy like before. Seeing an old friend in a new light. Waking up in the morning not caring if someone calls or not. Just walking thru this life of mine worry free and happy. Maybe it's the weather or maybe I am finally living life for what it has to offer. I know that I make my life. I play a role day by day. I may hate it or I may love it. The point my friends is that I am living. I don't shed tears at night trying to figure out where I may I have went wrong I sleep and I dream of what may lie ahead. I may not do everything I want to do in this life but there is a reason certain things don't happen. I will never know but it's okay. I am walking,talking,thinking,breathing, and being me.