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Not that anyone cares but I need to talk. The past month has been a big blur to me. Drinking every weekend way more than usual. Constantly breaking down in tears for whatever reason. In the past month I feel like I have lost all touch with reality. I have been shun for good it seems for whatever reason. I have lost a friend because of stupidity. All in all it's been a fucking great summer. I have nobody to turn to for comfort and support I feel. This makes no sense what so ever to me. What the fuck. I had a dream last night it kinda scared me a little bit. I was driving down the road talking on my cell phone to Heather M. when I somehow manage to lose control of my car and it played out in slow motion it was so real. I could hear the glass shattering and flying on my face and the car rolling and the whole time I am just going with it almost lifeless and when it stops I wakeup and crawl out of it. I can't move my legs and I can barely breathe. I just lay there crying and this has happend twice in the past week. I just been thinking about it alot and I can't seem to figure it out.