Mother's Day
I feel like I might have messed up... Mother's day was yesterday, and I sorta did a last minute revision to my plans for children's church, and stuffed a coloring page into the lesson so the kids would have something to give their parents. I feel like I should have done something much more intentional. Especially since as a mom I know how wonderful it would have been to have Caeden give me a special something. As it is he gave me one of the coloring pages that I had printed out for the older kids. He is only 2 so he wasn't in the class with them but they shared the coloring pages.
Mother's day felt like all the other days this year where we went to church. They had dancers preform, but I'm not sure they were there for mother's day or if they were just there because.. I mean it just wasn't really 'empasized' either way. I was blessed by their preformance though!
After church we invited a few people to come and have lunch with us but ended up eating alone (by alone I mean just our family and no one else). It was a good meal, and at a restaurant that we don't visit often, and actually I don't know if Patrick and I had ever been to it together before. So it was nice. I think I left my coloring pages from Caeden on the table there though.. so i'm kinda sad the only real present I got yesterday got left behind.
After lunch we went home and everyone but me got a nap, and we went on to some dear friends house. The food we ate was super yummy but apparently I over indulged because my belly was full and sore! We love them so much!
After we went home I realized, that it felt like any other sunday, that my birthday is coming and Patrick would be working and probably wouldn't prepare for it ahead of time, and that I was overly emotional.... all that added up to me being ungrateful to my husband for what he DID do for me... and thinking about what wasn't done... I feel ashamed.
I just have this HUGE idea of what mother's day is, and I finally feel like I really am 'part of the club' but not a whole lot is done to make me feel like my membership means anything... and I get so disappointed. Patrick felt awful, and I really shouldn't have made him feel bad... I'm so sorry Patrick!
He did sorta make up for it today by buying me some of his favorite chocolate truffles (in dark chocolate because I like dark) and some special stuff for my hair. Thanks Babe!
Samantha
Mother's day felt like all the other days this year where we went to church. They had dancers preform, but I'm not sure they were there for mother's day or if they were just there because.. I mean it just wasn't really 'empasized' either way. I was blessed by their preformance though!
After church we invited a few people to come and have lunch with us but ended up eating alone (by alone I mean just our family and no one else). It was a good meal, and at a restaurant that we don't visit often, and actually I don't know if Patrick and I had ever been to it together before. So it was nice. I think I left my coloring pages from Caeden on the table there though.. so i'm kinda sad the only real present I got yesterday got left behind.
After lunch we went home and everyone but me got a nap, and we went on to some dear friends house. The food we ate was super yummy but apparently I over indulged because my belly was full and sore! We love them so much!
After we went home I realized, that it felt like any other sunday, that my birthday is coming and Patrick would be working and probably wouldn't prepare for it ahead of time, and that I was overly emotional.... all that added up to me being ungrateful to my husband for what he DID do for me... and thinking about what wasn't done... I feel ashamed.
I just have this HUGE idea of what mother's day is, and I finally feel like I really am 'part of the club' but not a whole lot is done to make me feel like my membership means anything... and I get so disappointed. Patrick felt awful, and I really shouldn't have made him feel bad... I'm so sorry Patrick!
He did sorta make up for it today by buying me some of his favorite chocolate truffles (in dark chocolate because I like dark) and some special stuff for my hair. Thanks Babe!
Samantha