What would you do?
What do you do if the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry? That is the quote I go by these days. When I was with Evan, and we played badminton in my front yard we had all these stipulations like, if he lost against my sister he had to kiss me on the cheek. [This was when we were just friends]. But there was another sipulation that I can remember. There was a tree in my front yard, we called the Humping Tree, if someone lost, they had to hump the tree. [I know it's really dorky, but this was like a year ago.] Now that tree is cut down, and my memories with it. I had a dream last night about him. I dreamed that we were back together, but he did something wrong and I ran off crying. He didn't follow me. I don't know if that's symbolism or what, and I'm sorry to the people who have to read this journal, which is like one person, because I keep going on about Evan, but he is what's on my mind right now. He's what's making me depressed, when he used to make me so happy. He would go to great lengths to make sure I was happy, even if it meamnt he was not. I remember this one time I was mad at him for no reason at all. See, there's this girl in his calss, Melissa, who he really hates, he thinks she's annoying and everything. Well, she moved, so I don't have to worry about the Adam thing happening with her, too. We were on the phone, and he started talking about how she was a lesbian because at 'movie night,' [He didn't go, he just heard about it,] she and two other girls, Kaylee and Sarah Kaiser, all made out with each other. Know why I got mad? Because he didn't tell me the day he found out. Know what day he found out? The day he told me. See, if I was mad about something that day, I would just take it out on him. And that time, like every other time, he ended up apologizing. I took advantage of him, and that's why I am no longer talking to him, because I screwed it up. Kaylee also moved, to Alaska. Last year, before she moved, Evan was so in love with me, and Kaylee was kind of talking to him like they were friends, that he told her he hated her. Then, all during the day, he and his friend Todd took turns telling Kaylee how much Evan hated her. He did this, because he wanted to prove to me how much he loved me, and he did other things, to prove that, too. Like he would only talk to boys. He blocked all the girls on his buddy list, and only talked to them in school if he had to, like a teacher was making him. The teacher in his class, when learned of Kaylee moving to Alaska, made them each write down something they liked about her. Evan wrote, I don't like her, because she's an annoying Alaskan Eskimo. But enough about Evan. Tomorrow, we're getting a mother cat and her six baby kittens and we're going to watch them until they get adopted. These kittens are just born, so they're going to be really cute, but probably not as playful, like the last kittens. [Tiger and Maddy, I will never forget you guys] They moved to Welsly, so we're definitly never going to see them again. I asked my mom if we go visit them, but she refused to ask their new owners. She said, "How would you like it if the people who took Doughnut in were coming to visit him?" I guess I wouldn't like it, I'd be like, Stay the hell away from my baby, he's mine now, not yours, but still, I really miss those kittens and wish we could have adopted them. That's all for now, More Later.