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I would have updated with my various writing projects' status today. But I won't.
I feel like I've been stabbed in the heart and the knife is twisting.
Today, my girlfriend who I've been in love with for years now, decided to tell me she just wants to be friends, that she wants to see someone else.
I want to die.
Recently, I thought things were going better too. We'd been on a sort of hiatus in the relationship due to a lot of things like her moving to a new house and coping with a hectic job.
We'd talked a lot about it and she didn't want too intense a relationship at the time. "When I'm ready, it'll be with you."
Recently, things had started to spark again. Then suddenly, she seems too busy to see me. A fortnight passes. She calls me up to arrange to meet up, go out for dinner...
...and drops the bombshell. "I want us to just be friends. I think there is someone else I'd like to see."
Currently, there is a big hollow feeling in my chest like everything in there is scooped out and its hollow. I find it hard to even breathe. I had to cut the call short, I could barely speak.
I'm fucking devoted to that woman. I was planning on proposing to her at New Year.
Now...?
I'm torn between anger and sorrow. I've spent months in relationship limbo, all for nothing. And I love her. I love her.
I really don't know what I'm gonna do.
I feel like I've been stabbed in the heart and the knife is twisting.
Today, my girlfriend who I've been in love with for years now, decided to tell me she just wants to be friends, that she wants to see someone else.
I want to die.
Recently, I thought things were going better too. We'd been on a sort of hiatus in the relationship due to a lot of things like her moving to a new house and coping with a hectic job.
We'd talked a lot about it and she didn't want too intense a relationship at the time. "When I'm ready, it'll be with you."
Recently, things had started to spark again. Then suddenly, she seems too busy to see me. A fortnight passes. She calls me up to arrange to meet up, go out for dinner...
...and drops the bombshell. "I want us to just be friends. I think there is someone else I'd like to see."
Currently, there is a big hollow feeling in my chest like everything in there is scooped out and its hollow. I find it hard to even breathe. I had to cut the call short, I could barely speak.
I'm fucking devoted to that woman. I was planning on proposing to her at New Year.
Now...?
I'm torn between anger and sorrow. I've spent months in relationship limbo, all for nothing. And I love her. I love her.
I really don't know what I'm gonna do.