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i'm making my expectations high and i wont give up.
because i'm good enough for everything i want.
god has a plan for me and its going to be amazing.
even though i did my best to try to talk to my parents about everything and NOTHING changed.. i'm going to just take it and deal with it because they arent going to change. i am so thankful for everything they do.. but i feel like they're motto just to shut me and my brother up is money buys happieness.. it can temporarily but they don't understand that the little things really matter. my dad and i aren't close like i wish we could be, i feel like he doesnt know the real me. my mom and i can't be as close as i want to be.. we just can't because she doesnt understand things. she either over reacts or will use it against me when it comes to something. i talked to rachele about everything because she helped me get the courage to try to talk to my parents about things.. and today she was telling me that it was worth the try but they obviously arent going to change..and yeah she is right. i feared they wouldn't but i still tried.. i felt like a idiot because i got so hysteric but my parents just dont understand what i was trying to say..like little things eventually build up and really put a wear and tear on my heart and my outlook on things. so basically i just have to live with it and kiss there ass til im 18..
i am bummed about having to switch schools but i guess this is just going to be a way for me to meet new people and try something new.
because i'm good enough for everything i want.
god has a plan for me and its going to be amazing.
even though i did my best to try to talk to my parents about everything and NOTHING changed.. i'm going to just take it and deal with it because they arent going to change. i am so thankful for everything they do.. but i feel like they're motto just to shut me and my brother up is money buys happieness.. it can temporarily but they don't understand that the little things really matter. my dad and i aren't close like i wish we could be, i feel like he doesnt know the real me. my mom and i can't be as close as i want to be.. we just can't because she doesnt understand things. she either over reacts or will use it against me when it comes to something. i talked to rachele about everything because she helped me get the courage to try to talk to my parents about things.. and today she was telling me that it was worth the try but they obviously arent going to change..and yeah she is right. i feared they wouldn't but i still tried.. i felt like a idiot because i got so hysteric but my parents just dont understand what i was trying to say..like little things eventually build up and really put a wear and tear on my heart and my outlook on things. so basically i just have to live with it and kiss there ass til im 18..
i am bummed about having to switch schools but i guess this is just going to be a way for me to meet new people and try something new.