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Wow, I haven't been here in a while. I called it quits early today at work and came back to my room to... just for the hell of it, read what I'd written here since I began journaling shortly after joining the Marines... and here I am counting the days to get out.
A lot of things have changed. A lot hasn't.
I wrote, near the beginning: "life isn't that damned grand right now but i think i'm finally making progress. this whole clean slate thing i pulled at the beginning of last year is starting to look cleaner and cleaner. remake yourself. go for it. if you're not happy with who you are, then do something about it, i said to myself. how i did it was a mistake, maybe... but maybe it was good for me. i think that mistakes are useful sometimes for destroying comfort zones and making you face up to certain things that you'd otherwise be too much of a coward to face."
Close to the end of a contract, I still agree with this. The journey has sucked, but I accomplished what I set out to do. Emancipate myself from Southern culture. Obtain emotional, financial, and spiritual independence and cut the strings on anything and everything that Georgia ever did to me.
A lot of things have changed. A lot hasn't.
I wrote, near the beginning: "life isn't that damned grand right now but i think i'm finally making progress. this whole clean slate thing i pulled at the beginning of last year is starting to look cleaner and cleaner. remake yourself. go for it. if you're not happy with who you are, then do something about it, i said to myself. how i did it was a mistake, maybe... but maybe it was good for me. i think that mistakes are useful sometimes for destroying comfort zones and making you face up to certain things that you'd otherwise be too much of a coward to face."
Close to the end of a contract, I still agree with this. The journey has sucked, but I accomplished what I set out to do. Emancipate myself from Southern culture. Obtain emotional, financial, and spiritual independence and cut the strings on anything and everything that Georgia ever did to me.