This is so fucking illegal
I'm home now. I just got screamed at by dad because I hate him and I never come home and I don't let him see my grades because I'm clearly not an adult and he can still control me. Fucking bastard. Then he yelled at mom because mom spoke to me, even though she said she was "done with me" last night. So, since she's mature and doesn't hold a grudge against her children, he's pissed at her. I love that he thinks he can turn me against her by telling me that- or turn her against me by getting mad and threatening to leave. Haha NO ONE FUCKING WANTS YOU HERE. he didn't come to my concert last night to hurt my feelings. Mom didn't come because she was still mad at me. I cried. I don't now why, really, I guess I was just disappointed. That lasted all of three minutes. That's when I started wondering why the FUCK I busted my ass and put myself in danger and gave up everything I had to save that fucking family. Dad just left with my brother, grumbling "I just need to get out... I'm not going anywhere I just can't be here." Are you a 17 year old girl? Yeah, thought so, you worthless piece of shit. I know that in the car right now, my brother's getting the "Don't be like your sister" speech- the same one I used to get in the car about my older sister. I'm not like my sister, but that has nothing t do with him. I just pray to God that Matt does end up like me someday, and doesn't let dad control him forever. I wish I could drive, so I could give him the "Don't be like dad" speech....but it's too late for that...:'( I love my brother more than anything, and it tears my heart out when I think of him growing up to be dad's clone- he already is, really- and the second he lays a hand on his wife or children, I'll slit my fucking wrists. He's such a great person, please please please don't let him end up like dad! :(
dad told me if I don't start living here and respecting him and give him a copy of my transcript, he's not going to cosign for mu loans anymore, do my taxes, or figure out my financial aid....so, if i don't live here, I can't go to school anymore. Why the fuck should I come home- you just told me I'm not a part of the family, and all I'd do all fucking day is sit on the couch and watch TV. AND why does HE want me here? Restraining order says he can't be here at night when I am, so what the fuck difference does it make?! Scares me to think about the real reason he wants me home. So now I have to choose between school and sanity...and I love school...and most of my sanity's gone anyways...I HATE HIM I HATE THIS FUCKING HOUSE!!!!! I'mot staying here, you little fucking penis-less baby. I'm fucking not. Go to hell.
dad told me if I don't start living here and respecting him and give him a copy of my transcript, he's not going to cosign for mu loans anymore, do my taxes, or figure out my financial aid....so, if i don't live here, I can't go to school anymore. Why the fuck should I come home- you just told me I'm not a part of the family, and all I'd do all fucking day is sit on the couch and watch TV. AND why does HE want me here? Restraining order says he can't be here at night when I am, so what the fuck difference does it make?! Scares me to think about the real reason he wants me home. So now I have to choose between school and sanity...and I love school...and most of my sanity's gone anyways...I HATE HIM I HATE THIS FUCKING HOUSE!!!!! I'mot staying here, you little fucking penis-less baby. I'm fucking not. Go to hell.