Still in the OH..
After much thought..(since it's pretty much been my only thoughts since the whole peeing on a stick fiasco) mi amor and I have come to a decsion as to the whole prego thing. As much as it sucks I cannot have a child right now. I am in no way ready nor is mi amor. And it would be completly selfish to keep a child because I feel it would be better than to have a regret later. I don't want to bring a child in the world where it's life is already predetermined to be kinda sucky. I am in no way finacially stable and I don't even have health insurance. I am a huge pothead and I don't see that changing anytime soon. I don't want to have a baby and be too high/lazy to be the best mom I could be. I think it would be better to wait to have a baby. I need to be in a better place finacially and to be more grown up. I'm only 22. =/ Chris was ready to keep the baby but I don't think I can..so he said he supports my descion..so yeah..this sucks...
I'm a horrible Buddhist..
I'm a horrible Buddhist..