stuff n stuff
People will always have opinions. I am just so sick of people trying to "protect" me. I am not some fragile little thing that needs to be looked after. if i ant to date a girl who's never a gf b4 then let me. I am no fool. i went through in my mind everything that i was getting myself into. i still do what i want. life is too short to fucking be miserable and lonely and let things pass me by. you never know til u try. and theres always a lesson to be learned. and i learn the hard way. i'm far more wise and brave and strong than peolpe ever see. i dont understand why i can't just be myself.
I AM GAY.I FUCKING LIKE GIRLS AND THATS NOT GOING TO STOP.i can't be straight. i tired for long time. and im sick of everythime i hangout with my sister i feel like i should be something else. i cant turn it off. it makes my heart hurt thinking that no matter what i'm never going to be able to just be me. fucking socitey, fuckin bible, fuckin opinions and perceptions.
they havent sat up with me and chrissy all night and they dont see the connection we have. i feel like i am finally happy. and everyone thinks it isnt good enough. theres always risks and i'd rather live and learn and love and lose then never have it at all. i miss kerstin so bad. shes the only person that loved me no matter what. i know thats not ture but i miss her. she was my rock...as fucked up as it was she made me who i am today. and i dont ever want to be like her and i learned so much from her and i just miss her so bad. i miss people in my life that arent concerned with what im dfoingand not doing. i miss having fucking real friends that arent going to fucking judge me and try and cause drama and who just like me for me.
GOD...FUCK EVERYONE AND THEIR FUCKING CONDITIONS. IF ITS NOT UNCONDITIONAL I DONT WANT IT. I CANT HAVE IT. SO TAKE YOUR STANDARDS AND JUDGEMENTS AND OPINIONS AND FIND SOMEONE ELSE TO PRESS THEM UPON. FINALLY i am ok...and its never good enough. when will it ever be good enough. seriously just let me be myself. i just want to be high. i wanna smoke myself stupid so i wont be fased by all this bullshit.
i love myself...i have never been so into my own life before...i was just a passagner and didnt really particapate in anyhting but self distruction and instant gradifiaction . well hi this is me trying to grow up and if u cant let me be me then goodbye.
I AM GAY.I FUCKING LIKE GIRLS AND THATS NOT GOING TO STOP.i can't be straight. i tired for long time. and im sick of everythime i hangout with my sister i feel like i should be something else. i cant turn it off. it makes my heart hurt thinking that no matter what i'm never going to be able to just be me. fucking socitey, fuckin bible, fuckin opinions and perceptions.
they havent sat up with me and chrissy all night and they dont see the connection we have. i feel like i am finally happy. and everyone thinks it isnt good enough. theres always risks and i'd rather live and learn and love and lose then never have it at all. i miss kerstin so bad. shes the only person that loved me no matter what. i know thats not ture but i miss her. she was my rock...as fucked up as it was she made me who i am today. and i dont ever want to be like her and i learned so much from her and i just miss her so bad. i miss people in my life that arent concerned with what im dfoingand not doing. i miss having fucking real friends that arent going to fucking judge me and try and cause drama and who just like me for me.
GOD...FUCK EVERYONE AND THEIR FUCKING CONDITIONS. IF ITS NOT UNCONDITIONAL I DONT WANT IT. I CANT HAVE IT. SO TAKE YOUR STANDARDS AND JUDGEMENTS AND OPINIONS AND FIND SOMEONE ELSE TO PRESS THEM UPON. FINALLY i am ok...and its never good enough. when will it ever be good enough. seriously just let me be myself. i just want to be high. i wanna smoke myself stupid so i wont be fased by all this bullshit.
i love myself...i have never been so into my own life before...i was just a passagner and didnt really particapate in anyhting but self distruction and instant gradifiaction . well hi this is me trying to grow up and if u cant let me be me then goodbye.