appointment
I have my first meeting with a psychologist on wednesday at 10am. I am nervous. Psychology has always seemed a last resort for me. But I have to face facts. I am in danger here. I cannot cope. Therefore, I need external help. My friends are my lifefline (mcfires!!) but they cannot distract when I live so far away.
My goals for this are pretty simple. Keep in mind I don't know how well this will work.
1. Stop constantly thinking about Patrick's well-being.
2. Work through the sense of betrayal I am facing.
3. Try to learn to trust even though I am scarred.
4. Try not to shut myself off from the world.
5. Understand what Patrick did to me and why I deserved better.
6. Not give up on being pure and loyal to someone I love, no matter how risky it is.
Those are just some thoughts off the top of my head.
I loved Patrick more than I can ever say. Like an epic hero, my biggest strength (passion) also became my biggest weakness.
Patrick, we were beautiful together. I have to treasure that, but not dwell. Dwelling will destroy me.
My goals for this are pretty simple. Keep in mind I don't know how well this will work.
1. Stop constantly thinking about Patrick's well-being.
2. Work through the sense of betrayal I am facing.
3. Try to learn to trust even though I am scarred.
4. Try not to shut myself off from the world.
5. Understand what Patrick did to me and why I deserved better.
6. Not give up on being pure and loyal to someone I love, no matter how risky it is.
Those are just some thoughts off the top of my head.
I loved Patrick more than I can ever say. Like an epic hero, my biggest strength (passion) also became my biggest weakness.
Patrick, we were beautiful together. I have to treasure that, but not dwell. Dwelling will destroy me.