I have no idea what made me remember I have one of these ( Read more... )

My life could not be better. :)

I'm 19. Right now.
NO happy birthdays yet.
Horrible back pain. you'd think I'm 91.
I feel so sad and alone. My boyfriend doesn't even notice me. and if does he does the wrong thing. he can't just support me. no one does. ever.
sometimes i hate myself.
ugh.
stupid spring forward

Life is so short and so sudden. Humans are peculiar creatures, and in the end, so little of it matters. All we can do is love and love some more. We create conflict to make our lives more interesting, but lately I've been enjoying life by just being happy.


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I'm in love.

I'm in yearbook. And once again I am not doing what I am supposed to be doing. Oh well.

Senior year.
Next week is senior week.
two weeks is prom.
Grad night is in three weeks.
then graduation is june 20.
it's so weird. or should i say queer?

I feel like I'm too young for the real world, but too old for the one I'm in.

I wish I couls go back a dn be fourteen and do all the things I could have done. Taken all the risks I could have taken.

Now that time has passed and I'm all dried up like a raisen with nothing to do but wilt in the sun.

My spring break is over.
Very sad.
I was sick the whole time.
Hanging out with Kat surrounded by drunken russian men and eeps was fun.
O'Malley makes me mad. and sad.
Friends don't lie to each other. Friends actually want to hang out wiht each other.
shits fucked up.

But I think I got a horrible haricut

It's been more than a year since I've written in this thing. And once again I'm sick. it's like when I'm sick, I have all this freetime to think about shit I used to do, and so I write here either to relive it or kill the time ( Read more... )