As a Heart gets crushed and killed, A life gets set free...
This will be the death of me. I am no longer afraid to admit it. I still have some feelings for that one person. But I don't want to anymore. It's killing me. Tearing my life apart piece by piece. Day by day, I see my life turn more into hell. I'm tired of living like this. Nobody knows what it feels like to be awake all night looking at the clock thinking to yourself "Oh God, only 3 more hours..." 3 more hours until the day starts. I fear the day ahead of me and I know its going to suck. I hate this. I don't want to live anymore if this is how life will be. I want to die. I want to die, whether I go to heaven or hell, take me away from this place. As long as I am away from that person. It's not her fault, I was a fool to ever even think I was in love. And now, this is who I am. Failing school and everything, no sleep, no eating, loss of strength, betrayed, and parents hating their own son. Damn, I regret so much in my life. And it all starts cause I met a person. It's all my fault, I've been killing myself all along and I can't stop it. It's impossible. I've tried and tried but I can't. I beg of somebody, anybody...God, with tears in my eyes as I write this please take this away even if it means my Death. I don't want to feel it anymore...