In way over my head...
well that's how I feel. I may have been smoking crack when I decided my schedule, but it looked so good on paper. =) I know I have alot of stuff going on this semester, probably too much and I don't want to burn out so I"m trying to make sure I"m balancing everything but like it was said in chapel this morning, living a balanced life is tiring. Last night I was so tired that all I wanted to do is cry. That's not very typical of me (well aunt flo should be paying a visit soon and that makes more sense). I didn't cry although I kind of wish that I had-just to release what I"m feeling. I kind of feel like I"m stuck in a box or something and I can see where I need to be/want to be but I just have to figure out how to get out and that's not so easy.
But I do have hope b/c I know that after WEC is over that'll be one thing done and out of the way. And my OT 2 class will be over the first week of April. Let me just say that I think it's ridiculous that they cram that class into like 8 weeks. I'll be writing about that in my evalution when it's time to do it but probably no change will take place. Anyways, and I know that I won't always have a 4 hour class on Wednesday afternoon so that will help make my Wednesdays not quite so exhausting. I was so out of it in my class tonight. I was antsy and not really paying attn, but I didn't play any games on my computer. yay for me. =)
I looked through some of my Russia pictures and I long to be there again. Over the past few months as I've been praying and contemplating about going back I've wondered if the passion is gone b/c there are times where I just don't want to go back. well I do want to go back but I don't want to deal with some of things I have to deal with when I'm there; but they aren't really important things; they're just things that cause me to not be so selfish. Anyways, the passion and love for Russia is still there, but I still don't know if I should go back. I guess I"m really probably mostly stuck on the money stuff. raising support, needing to work and save for school for the next year. I've always had a hard time with trusting God about finances.
Well, I think I"m done for the night and am going to turn in.
Peace and love
But I do have hope b/c I know that after WEC is over that'll be one thing done and out of the way. And my OT 2 class will be over the first week of April. Let me just say that I think it's ridiculous that they cram that class into like 8 weeks. I'll be writing about that in my evalution when it's time to do it but probably no change will take place. Anyways, and I know that I won't always have a 4 hour class on Wednesday afternoon so that will help make my Wednesdays not quite so exhausting. I was so out of it in my class tonight. I was antsy and not really paying attn, but I didn't play any games on my computer. yay for me. =)
I looked through some of my Russia pictures and I long to be there again. Over the past few months as I've been praying and contemplating about going back I've wondered if the passion is gone b/c there are times where I just don't want to go back. well I do want to go back but I don't want to deal with some of things I have to deal with when I'm there; but they aren't really important things; they're just things that cause me to not be so selfish. Anyways, the passion and love for Russia is still there, but I still don't know if I should go back. I guess I"m really probably mostly stuck on the money stuff. raising support, needing to work and save for school for the next year. I've always had a hard time with trusting God about finances.
Well, I think I"m done for the night and am going to turn in.
Peace and love