Time for an update...
Well i will start off a few days ago with my dad. His back has been out and really hurting him. And the tension in the house has been so crazy it makes you very uneasy. My mom and brother where gone my dad was sitting on the porch and i just got home from school... I was standing on the porch beside him and he was looking out toward the over pass down the road from us, and he says to me "sometimes i wish i could just take off hitch hiking and go die by myeslf." I was hurt by this big time, i dont know what I am suppose to say in return to that so i just stood there in silence and finally left to go clean my room.
I understand he is in pain but he does not need to think like that, he is the only man in my life besides my brother that I care about more then anything else in the world. I feel that without him being here my life would not be complete. Everything I am doing right now is because of the powerful influence he has had on me. He is the one who has taught me not to take the easy way out if it wasnt for that i honestly dont think i would be here, because many of times i fell into the urges of suicide. But have never gave into them because that is an easy way out of what life has given you.
Anyways on a different note he is doing a little better even though his back is out but at least he isnt talking about leaving anymore.
For college i signed up for my classes for next semester and i have 19 credit hours worth. I am taking eng comp 2, intro to edu, begining algebra, psychology, art for elementary, and bio 100. I have a pretty busy schedule and its defintely going to effect my work schedule but i need a change and this one is going to be pretty good. I am thinking about taking a bus down to panama city and spending spring break there, Me and ashley did have plans to go on a singles cruise but she is not single anymore so that wont work out. I think i will spend my time laying on the beach. sounds like a good time to me.
Nothing to much else has been going on in my life. My friend who was away at boot camp will be home tonight. I dont know if i want to see him or not. To much drama and i am just sick and tired of it. I cant stand anymore of this drama shit. Oh and i am going to be sending christmas cards and i will need a few address from people who want one from me.
Well i guess that is all for now i hope everyone has a beautiful day and may your lives be filled with sunshine.
I understand he is in pain but he does not need to think like that, he is the only man in my life besides my brother that I care about more then anything else in the world. I feel that without him being here my life would not be complete. Everything I am doing right now is because of the powerful influence he has had on me. He is the one who has taught me not to take the easy way out if it wasnt for that i honestly dont think i would be here, because many of times i fell into the urges of suicide. But have never gave into them because that is an easy way out of what life has given you.
Anyways on a different note he is doing a little better even though his back is out but at least he isnt talking about leaving anymore.
For college i signed up for my classes for next semester and i have 19 credit hours worth. I am taking eng comp 2, intro to edu, begining algebra, psychology, art for elementary, and bio 100. I have a pretty busy schedule and its defintely going to effect my work schedule but i need a change and this one is going to be pretty good. I am thinking about taking a bus down to panama city and spending spring break there, Me and ashley did have plans to go on a singles cruise but she is not single anymore so that wont work out. I think i will spend my time laying on the beach. sounds like a good time to me.
Nothing to much else has been going on in my life. My friend who was away at boot camp will be home tonight. I dont know if i want to see him or not. To much drama and i am just sick and tired of it. I cant stand anymore of this drama shit. Oh and i am going to be sending christmas cards and i will need a few address from people who want one from me.
Well i guess that is all for now i hope everyone has a beautiful day and may your lives be filled with sunshine.