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shattered hopes
confused and dazed.. what to do.. I feel like I know, but don't. Or don't know but want to. Things are getting harder. No one understands, no one listens. I need a change. Or I need something back. I'm not sure yet. I wish I wasn't so jumbled. I wish I could do everything right, and make everyone happy, including myself. If I were just invisible it would be soo much easier. OH WAIT I AM.. I just haven't figured out how to make myself happy. I think I bring it on myself, If I were just like everyone else, it would be soo much easier. If I just liked boys, or liked girls that were younger, or did drugs, and drank all the time and didn't care about anyone but myself, oh gee.. I would have all these superficial friends that I Always hoped for. or at least everyone else has.
confused and dazed.. what to do.. I feel like I know, but don't. Or don't know but want to. Things are getting harder. No one understands, no one listens. I need a change. Or I need something back. I'm not sure yet. I wish I wasn't so jumbled. I wish I could do everything right, and make everyone happy, including myself. If I were just invisible it would be soo much easier. OH WAIT I AM.. I just haven't figured out how to make myself happy. I think I bring it on myself, If I were just like everyone else, it would be soo much easier. If I just liked boys, or liked girls that were younger, or did drugs, and drank all the time and didn't care about anyone but myself, oh gee.. I would have all these superficial friends that I Always hoped for. or at least everyone else has.