ya. jealous?
lauren and i talked about dancing in moonlight with white feminely garments of pure truth beauty. i would do it naked i said. celebrating womanhood and nature and lovingness. we roasted smores. set fireworks. later watched anime. drove a bernadette and a john dunn home. and then i was home. and the spark rustle of conversation struck again.
i went outside. pealed off all of my clothes. (i thought of ahead of time and brought a blanket) and i danced. like the stupid gay fairy i am. bit akward at first. like the first slow dance you have with another boy- cute boy- when you were 13. (where do i put my hands? do i look at him? how long is this song?!) but it was invigorating. i sprawled unto the blanket. it was kinda cold but not really. gazing at a beautifully moonly moon was so delightful. it was like a dream. like it was illegal-- "unnatural" but natural of naturelike experiences.
somehow i later, with some of my clothes on and in my house, thought this was crazy. weird. uncomfortably creepy. like alan strang from equus. but its not that really. im just well ya, still crazy and weird but free-spirited eccentric. live the fullest. no regrets.
i went outside. pealed off all of my clothes. (i thought of ahead of time and brought a blanket) and i danced. like the stupid gay fairy i am. bit akward at first. like the first slow dance you have with another boy- cute boy- when you were 13. (where do i put my hands? do i look at him? how long is this song?!) but it was invigorating. i sprawled unto the blanket. it was kinda cold but not really. gazing at a beautifully moonly moon was so delightful. it was like a dream. like it was illegal-- "unnatural" but natural of naturelike experiences.
somehow i later, with some of my clothes on and in my house, thought this was crazy. weird. uncomfortably creepy. like alan strang from equus. but its not that really. im just well ya, still crazy and weird but free-spirited eccentric. live the fullest. no regrets.