Matthew, I have tried not to worry. Believe me, I have done everything that I can think of not to worry, and not to care. But I can't find it in me, because I love you, and I love Peter too, and regardless of my relationship with Alfred, I want to get along. What you're doing right now is not managing.
This isn't a case of me looking for sympathy and attention because all that's wrong is my fault, it's me presenting the solid fact that I make things worse just by being around.
...it isn't silly. I miss me, too. And not just my body.
Lili...
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Yes, Matthew?
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You've already done so much for Peter and me.
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It doesn't mean a thing if I smash it all to pieces, later.
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My family was never exactly very whole in the first place.
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I know, that's why I wanted to help. But every time I try, I only make it worse.
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Please don't worry about it, Lili. My family will manage even with me as the eldest. You have enough to stress about, eh?
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Matthew, I have tried not to worry. Believe me, I have done everything that I can think of not to worry, and not to care. But I can't find it in me, because I love you, and I love Peter too, and regardless of my relationship with Alfred, I want to get along. What you're doing right now is not managing.
I'm not fragile. I can handle it.
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But I've loved Al and Peter and my father all my life, and I've tried all my life, and we've never really...
[ A pause. ]
Thank you, Lili. I love you too. Please apologize to Alfred.
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So, it's a hopeless venture? It that what you're saying?
...I'm going to, but I really doubt he wants to see me ever again right now. It'll have to wait until I'm me again.
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No! No, I just... it's not going to be easy, Lili. You shouldn't be blamed for how we are.
When you say it that way, you make me miss you. Pretty silly considering you're just a few doors away, eh?
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This isn't a case of me looking for sympathy and attention because all that's wrong is my fault, it's me presenting the solid fact that I make things worse just by being around.
...it isn't silly. I miss me, too. And not just my body.
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