Matthew, I have tried not to worry. Believe me, I have done everything that I can think of not to worry, and not to care. But I can't find it in me, because I love you, and I love Peter too, and regardless of my relationship with Alfred, I want to get along. What you're doing right now is not managing.
You're right, it shouldn't have. But thank you for retrieving Peter.
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It wasn't a problem.
...if you want, I can leave. I'll stay with Sebastian.
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...I don't want you to leave, but that's entirely up to you.
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I'm only going to make it worse between you three. I promised myself that I would do exactly the opposite. I have no business here.
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...you promised yourself you'd make it better between us? Between my brothers?
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It's a promise I promptly broke, so no use getting worked up about it.
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Lili...
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Yes, Matthew?
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You've already done so much for Peter and me.
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It doesn't mean a thing if I smash it all to pieces, later.
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My family was never exactly very whole in the first place.
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I know, that's why I wanted to help. But every time I try, I only make it worse.
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Please don't worry about it, Lili. My family will manage even with me as the eldest. You have enough to stress about, eh?
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Matthew, I have tried not to worry. Believe me, I have done everything that I can think of not to worry, and not to care. But I can't find it in me, because I love you, and I love Peter too, and regardless of my relationship with Alfred, I want to get along. What you're doing right now is not managing.
I'm not fragile. I can handle it.
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But I've loved Al and Peter and my father all my life, and I've tried all my life, and we've never really...
[ A pause. ]
Thank you, Lili. I love you too. Please apologize to Alfred.
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So, it's a hopeless venture? It that what you're saying?
...I'm going to, but I really doubt he wants to see me ever again right now. It'll have to wait until I'm me again.
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