spring breakk
ahh, it's mad boring. snuffles was supposed to come back this sunday, and then the next day would have been school, so we couldn't hang out. -.-
but he's coming back tuesday afternoon! :) mad excited.
and then after, we hang out on thursday and friday, and i might try and push for saturday and invite him to see 17 again with me and my close friend, but i'm not sure if it's supposed to be an "only us" thing. so we'll see what happens thurs and friday. thurs, we're gonna go to an arcade. kinda weird, lmao, but i still get to hang out with him. <3 and then friday, i'm gonna have lunch and play pool with him and some people i don't really know, and the girl i'm hanging out with on saturday.
i'm getting mad restless. so bored not talking to him.
oh, i guess i should talk about our aim conversations. first weird convo was when he asked me a hypothetical question: if it would be awkward if a friend told me that he had a crush on me? then the next day or something, he asks if i would make it awkward if he said he had a crush on me? so i was just like, guys don't really like girls like me. when i like someone, i would get mad quiet and nervous, so guys wouldn't like me. and then when i don't like the guy, i would talk to him like he's a girl--absolutely no flirting or anything. so there's no way a guy could like me.
and these convos keep coming up. like he tells me that he's not gay because he liked girls, and if he told me he liked me, would that prove that he's not gay?
okay, cut. i need an interjection. do i think he likes me? yes. but not that much. i really think he likes me because he hangs out with me too much. iono, i also don't like his answers to my friends. when they ask him if he likes someone, he says, "maybe, i don't know." and the bad thing is, i felt that before. with him. i don't want him to feel that way with me. i probably like him the same way, but i'm a weird girl so i like him more because of my obsessive nature. =/
i mean, he's a sweet guy. but... iono. maybe we're moving too fast. sometimes i feel like i talk to him like a girl, but since he's flirty, and i can be as well, my feelings magnify.
okay so today's convo. ah, we talked about exes, and he tried to get out the person i liked. he had three gfs, and i only had one. and then he said he'd tell me the other two, because i knew one, if i told him one. well, at first it was one for one, but that was a bad deal on my part, and he probably knew it was him. so eventually he told me them, and i gave him three hints (he had black hair, was really flirty, and really smart... got into Brown =.=). then he asked me what i would do if he asked me out, but i sorta ignored it. he asked me again, and i responded that i would wake up and go to school. XD
can't wait till he comes back. :D ugh, i feel mad restless not talking to him. and the twelve hour time difference sucks. but he wakes up at like 2 in the morning because of jetlag apparently?
i wonder what would happen when school ends. =/
but he's coming back tuesday afternoon! :) mad excited.
and then after, we hang out on thursday and friday, and i might try and push for saturday and invite him to see 17 again with me and my close friend, but i'm not sure if it's supposed to be an "only us" thing. so we'll see what happens thurs and friday. thurs, we're gonna go to an arcade. kinda weird, lmao, but i still get to hang out with him. <3 and then friday, i'm gonna have lunch and play pool with him and some people i don't really know, and the girl i'm hanging out with on saturday.
i'm getting mad restless. so bored not talking to him.
oh, i guess i should talk about our aim conversations. first weird convo was when he asked me a hypothetical question: if it would be awkward if a friend told me that he had a crush on me? then the next day or something, he asks if i would make it awkward if he said he had a crush on me? so i was just like, guys don't really like girls like me. when i like someone, i would get mad quiet and nervous, so guys wouldn't like me. and then when i don't like the guy, i would talk to him like he's a girl--absolutely no flirting or anything. so there's no way a guy could like me.
and these convos keep coming up. like he tells me that he's not gay because he liked girls, and if he told me he liked me, would that prove that he's not gay?
okay, cut. i need an interjection. do i think he likes me? yes. but not that much. i really think he likes me because he hangs out with me too much. iono, i also don't like his answers to my friends. when they ask him if he likes someone, he says, "maybe, i don't know." and the bad thing is, i felt that before. with him. i don't want him to feel that way with me. i probably like him the same way, but i'm a weird girl so i like him more because of my obsessive nature. =/
i mean, he's a sweet guy. but... iono. maybe we're moving too fast. sometimes i feel like i talk to him like a girl, but since he's flirty, and i can be as well, my feelings magnify.
okay so today's convo. ah, we talked about exes, and he tried to get out the person i liked. he had three gfs, and i only had one. and then he said he'd tell me the other two, because i knew one, if i told him one. well, at first it was one for one, but that was a bad deal on my part, and he probably knew it was him. so eventually he told me them, and i gave him three hints (he had black hair, was really flirty, and really smart... got into Brown =.=). then he asked me what i would do if he asked me out, but i sorta ignored it. he asked me again, and i responded that i would wake up and go to school. XD
can't wait till he comes back. :D ugh, i feel mad restless not talking to him. and the twelve hour time difference sucks. but he wakes up at like 2 in the morning because of jetlag apparently?
i wonder what would happen when school ends. =/