in the middle of a gun fight, in the center of a resturaunt
soo today i slept till 3 pm. it was lovelee. then i recieved a few phone calls, took a shower, got ready, thought about going to placerville but ended up going to elk grove instead and then hung out w a few ppl an did a bit of shopping. i got some pot today. so ive been incredibly high all day. talked to my mom about my bf spending the night, shes seriously thinking about it. i honestly think she really likes him, which is great for me. stress free. lol. so for school i have to read some stupid ass book for areading log an i bought a few books from borders an theyre called "gossip girl" an theures about 5 books or so in the first series an theyre actually pretty good. i like reading them. thats weird because i hate fucking reading. but w.e i guess sometimes its nice. ive been finding new ways to relax an that is one of them. i think in the last 3 months ive became totally independ. or alot more then i used to bc latly ive felt like i dont give a fuck wehter ppl are here to support me ornot. the onely one who does is my bf. an my "so called" friends fuckin like fell off the face of the earth or soemthing. a few of them never call me back or answer any of my emails an the rest are shady as fuck, so i jsut dont care anymore. fuck em. i went to twisted x mas. i have to say, my chemical romance, the used, taking back sunday and pappa roach were indeed fucking amazing like no other. i had soo much fun. it was fuckin dandy. i went with denee and brittany. i wish a few other ppl could have been there but w.e i still had a fun time.i think on new years eve im going to this concert thats in san diego. atreyu,throwdown, terror an a few other amazing bands are playing. well actually like ten bands are playing. if not then im gonna go to some party if i dont have one and me an my bf are gonna spend then ight atm y house if i have a party but if we decided to go to one then were gonna spend the night at britts with a few ppl i suppose. im jsut not exactly sure wuts up with all my plans anymore. haha yea, if you wanna call t hem plans anymore. i rarly plan shit anymore. i jsut go. me and my dad are gettin along ok i suppose. me an my bro are on good terms for the moment i tihnk..which is odd bc hes dating oneof my firends but i have to act like im ok with it. i mean shes 18 an hes 19 but wtf..she was my friend, i think hes gonna fuck it all up in the long run. thats wuts happened on the past. *sigh* but w.e im soo over that shit. my 17th b day is in january. on the 11th. me an about 10 or 15 friends or so are going to tahoe an staying in a cabin or hotel. eitehr way im gong snowboarding an having a fat party. so yes it will be fun. if not im going to frisco. so either way i will be outta stupid ass galt. im moving to sacramento in about a year to go to college. me an erin an kierstin are buying a house or renting one an all getting jobs and going to college. im already taking a few pre colloge courses for cosmetology. im pretty stoked about it. i mean come on wut girl doesnt like eye liner and hair producks. at least every girl does in some way. and i love it soo why the fuck not. for christmas im asking for a new cell phone! and a puppy...a pit bull! an im gettin a few piercings also, so im pretty amped! cant wait. i saw my ex today but it wasnt anytihng special. it was a sorta hey wuts crackin fag type thing. but ya, w.e im soo over it. i got my hair hilighted and cut. i fucking love it. its not too short but its definitly shorter then wut it was. i got some college grants in the mail today an i was like WTF. i already got my shit settled. so about this whole friend buisness. i tihnk i only have three true friends anymore. i mean how cold someone just stop being there for you, after being so close and everything. im seriously hurt buy it, an i think you know who you are and wut not. usually id be pissed about feeling forgotton about but not this time. im totally dissapointed. an it fucking sucks. i love being forgotton about. :'( i guess shit wasnt always supposed to work out. all i want is wut we had back :(. i had hella fun with you. and you know it. it wasl ike me an you were inseperable. crazy status. and wut not. but on with a new subject, like i sed its not easy to jsut shut one door after sooo much shit. but i became close friends with this other girl named katie. she lives in elk grove. i mean were not as close as me an kristine ever were an i doubt that we will be but shes really kool an i guess its always kool to meet new ppl but its never fucking kool to forget ppl or be forgotton about. im thinking right now that im gonna deicde to shop on the internet for some sweaters and shirts. i supposed i will try and update this shit more often <3333333333333333333333